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Age old dilemma Art and creation process: Time Ideas Inspiration Choose two "Hmmm..."

I was browsing the Internet and Tumblr-blogs. "Ew, yuck!" *scratch scratch* *snif snif* *tickles* "Don't startle me."

Hanna-Pirita haastoi muut tekemään ohjeita onnellisuuteen , joten tässä oma osuuteni. Hanna-Pirita challenged others to make tips for happy life, here is what I got up. Tips for happiness - Nourish yourself and your loved ones - Relax - Love - Restrict toxic things and toxic people from your life: "Pathetic loser!" "I don't have to listen to inappropriateness."

Roleplays are fun, they said... Thinking: "It would be fun to get Eryk in the dating scene. I'll ask L if Character M is free." Typing: "Hey, I was wond--" Text on the screen: Character M is dating Character B, lol! Thinking: "Eeeeh... There is not much others free." Thinking: "Well, Eryk could send a gift to Character D. Character D is from another tribe, but long-distance relationship could be interesting. Text on the screen: Character Y(* has a crush on Character D, lol! "Urgh!" (* Characters Y and B are played by same person. Crash! "GODDAMMIT!" "You owe me a computer." "Yeah yeah!"

Kaverin hahmo Nightsky Oakleaf Holtista .

"I have tossed two sketches to the trash already. This can't be happening! CAN'T BE!!" *hyperventilates*

Last night I dreamed my father was not dead. In my dream, I am shopping for groceries. I forget the shopping, when a familiar person passes me by. I ran after the figure. "Da! Wait!!" Finally, I catch him. "Where have you been!? We have been really worried and sad! Things should be taken care of!! There is an awful pile of estate and funeral bills, too! You are hopeless!!" My father replies: "I was having a vacation." "It really hit the spot." "Huh? But who did we then cremate? Did you fake your own death?" Then I woke up. Lots of things were left unsaid.

I really don't like letting anyone in my kitchen. Me: "I need to go. Cook some sausage gravy for dinner." Alex: "Yeap." M: "You should wash the dishes first." A: "That was the plan." M: "You know how to cook sausage gravy, right? First you chop the sausages, and..." A: "I know." M: "Use the small kettle. I need to get going." A: "Yeah yeah." A thinking: "3... 2... 1..." M: "You can find potatoes from..." A: "Get going, already! I know what to do!"

Kuningatar Alkoholi asked: "The best movie?" "So, well, the best or favourite?" "Let's say the movie I find the best." " Les vacances de Monsieur Hulot" (Kuvareferenssi täältä: klik-klik ) "It is a comedy about Mr Hulot's holiday and the shenanigans and blunders happening on that holiday. Some might find the movie boring, but to me it is a feel-good movie." Bonus: Osku finds The White Reindeer as the best film. Nootti: Kysymyksiä saap edelleen jättää kommentteihin vaikka tässä tai sitten vaikkapa täällä .

Kuningatar Alkoholi asked: "The things that annoy you the most?" "Hahaha! We would have it easier, if you'd asked about things that do not annoy!" "Seriously, though, there are lots of things. Generally speaking, things like racism and misogyny annoy me." Especially if others around me see the problem as me seeing problems everywhere, and they never see the problems I see." "That rape joke was just a joke. You need a better sense of humor." "I think I will create a top 3 list of everyday annoyances. Three most annoying things from today." Sleeping problems: 4 o' clock in the morning *stirs from sleep* *Siiiiigh* Undefined longing for romance: "And of course, not a single romantic book or movie around!" When things just do not flow: "Goddammit..."

"As of late, I have been feeling weird about drawing." "I don't mean comics. I know there are some readers around. Thinking: "Even if you don't always let me know of yourselves, you still rock!" "It is all about this other stuff. Drawings I do ie. from roleplaying characters. Mostly I have drawn my own chars, but lately tried to draw chars of other people too. Feedback is hard to get, though. I usually have to ask for some." I am not expecting this: "Ooh and aah, You Great and Mighty Artist! We're not worthy!" Something like this would be quite alright: "Hey, so nice of you to draw my character! Thanks!" "No problem! It was fun to draw!" Now I feel like this: "Hmph!" (pic published 3 weeks ago) "Could someone, please say something about this?!" "Don't have the time." I do realize that I am not the greatest at drawing. I still work hard to get better. At the moment, even feedback like this would be welcomed: "This is the crappiest shit I have ever seen in my life!" "You acknowledged my existence and my work! Oh, thank you! Thank you! Thank you, you wonderful being!"

"I was supposed to get us another cat, but things did not work out." "Boohoohooo..." "Snurf... I like you too, Osku."

Teemukillinen asked: "Where did you get your inspiration to draw comics? Do you have other things on the works than the blog?" Me: "... You gave me a hard one." "We travel back to the past, for about 23 years. I am 3, my brother is 6." There was a healthy (?) sibling rivalry between us. "Mom, I want to go to preschool, too." Same next year; I am 4, my brother is 7. "Mom, I want to go to school, too." When he was a kid, my brother liked to draw comics. They had dinosaurs, robots... Maybe even dinosaur robots? Some stuff was drawn on old paper sheet meant for old fax machine. Pictures and stories were easy to leaf through. The stories my brother created were my first touch to the world of stories and drawings combined, alongside with Donald Duck comics. Because my brother drew, I drew. Because of our age difference, I naturally did not quite reach his level, but he encouraged me to continue. "At some point drawing comics just ended -- for us both. Other stuff I did draw. I started to draw comics again at adult age, now that I have learned not to mimic others so blatantly. When I was a kid, I was a huge plagiarist. Guess my imagination and skills were not enough for stories of my own." "Nowadays I am inspired by other comic bloggers, my readers, even potential haters. You are the force that keeps my drawing hand on the move. Thank you for that." I don't draw other projects at the moment. "Although it might be interesting to play a Nuzlocke challenge in Pokémon X and make it in a comic." INFORMATION BOX: Pokémon Nuzlocke Challenge (in a nutshell) - You can catch only one Pokémon, usually the first encountered, on each route (one can make an exception with Legendaries and shinies). - Each captured Pokémon must be named. - If Pokémon faints, it is dead and must not be used again. It has to be released or boxed (if all team members die, the game is over). "Those are the basic rules, but there are also variations. There are some gorgeous Nuzlocke comics in the Internet." Dunno if anyone is interested in reading my gaming mishaps? "Andrei? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!" "Pippi was too young to die!" "But we shall see what I get to think of."

Happened on one day: Thinking: "Oh yeah, I need a postcard. Just one this time." 10 minutes pass: "Heehee! Heeheehee! Well, now I have things(*! I have never been this happy!" (* cards and stamps

Thinking : "There are people out there, who actually read these things!"

"..." "!!!" "I find it odd that people laugh at lewd Moomin fan dubs, but apparently the Moomins on the Riviera movie ruins people's childhoods." Fan dub: "And what the fuck do you want?" Moomins on the Riviera: "Casinos! Gambling..." "Although it is possible that the fans of the lewd dubs are not the same people as the people who criticize the movie. Although understanding and finding out about these people is difficult."

[some indescribable cursewords] "Goddammit, my fellow roleplayer! No one is trying to steal your character's girlfriend! BESIDES THESE CHARACTERS ARE POLYAMOROUS!!" "And what am I supposed to do with you?" "Dunno."

Marja asked: "Have anyone ever convinced you about something as a child, that has remained in your thoughts to this day?" "I really can't think of anything else than how some people in my class treated me like worst shit. They convinced me that I can't do anything and I am worth nothing." "On my worst days, their words have been stuck on my mind." "Snurf... I would like to attach those people a message here, if that's alright?" "Go fuck yourselves, you whole lot! You were wrong!"

Marja asked: "Do you have guilty pleasures?" "..." Thinking: "What would I dare to tell?" Thinking: "What if...? No. How about...? Nope. Then, if...? You'll get told, shut up!" "How about I tell you about the most embarrassing film I like?" "I don't like romantic comedies. Ask my friends." "If they had just communicated openly from the start, they would not have messed up. Goddammit those blockheads! I am so mad!" I am really tough company for watching a rom-com. One day I decided to put on a random film on Netflix. "Yeah, maybe that one, I'll get some background noise for drawing. The start: Thinking: "What is her problem?" The middle: Thinking: "I wonder if the travel guide realizes that the bus driver has hots for her?" The end: "And they all lived happily ever after! Oh how wonderful!" "The movie is My Life in Ruins. Total fluff from start to finish. Um, I would have watched it once again some time ago." "Well, if it was still available. Thanks a lot, Netflix." I eventually ended up buying the DVD from an online auction. Now that I paid it, I can only wait.

*clatter clatter* "Mail's here!" Thinking: "And nothing for me!"

Katapata asked: "If you could be anyone for a day, who would you be and what would you do?" "I would not want to be anyone special, real person, but if the opportunity should rise, I'd like to test one thing." "I would like to be beautiful by media standards, and super popular, for one day." You know the media's view of a perfect woman? Flowing hair, doe eyes, full lips, youknowwhatImean... "It would be fun to try." "I could look like this. I'd like to be a type of person, who gets invitations to parties and asked out on dates every weekend." On other hand, I might get tired of certain shallowness. "But for a one day, sure." To same extent, I could try to be A. Man I'd do all the stuff men can do that women can't. B. Cat. I'd snooze all day.

Achievements of today. 1. Got out of bed "Hnngh!" 2. Got the day clothes on "Siiiigh!" 3. Did the grocery shopping 4. Ate a balanced, healthy meal Soy-macaroni casserole Salad Cottage cheese and pickled onions Big glass of water

Osku helps, part 1: Paper weight

"Kustiii... Why my mail is not going anywhereee...?" "I don't know, and besides, my name is Jaska!" "Jaskaaa..." ~*~ Olen postcrossaaja. Tällä hetkellä mulla on ollut kymmenen korttia matkassa n. 6-59 päivää. Pisimpään matkassa ovat olleet kortit Valko-Venäjälle (59 päivää) ja Turkkiin (45 päivää). I am a postcrosser. At the moment I have had ten cards traveling for about 6-59 days. Cards to Belarus (59 days) and Turkey (45 days) have been traveling the longest.

At the beer garden: *Very important comic people pass by* Thinking: " Oh, that fits well with me!" *scratch scratch* Thinking: "Were those my posse? Guess I have to remove 'attentive' from this personality test."

Osku helps, part 2: Nice companion cat My friend Kata (somewhat scared of cats) stays over night.

Saturday and I have not done anything sensible. I have watched nonsensical stuff and the Exorcist.

On Saturday: "Well, if the weather is tomorrow just as nice as today, I could go to the zoo." On Sunday: "...Well then."

*sigh* My apologies to all people, who are waiting for my emails and forum posts. I just can't at this moment.

Tämä sarjis viittaa seuraavaan vanhaan päivitykseen --> KLIK-KLIK Mia watches Whitechapel: *Thinking*: "That one police is played by an actor, who also played the devil in the last season of Being Human (UK). I don't trust this guy either." The end of the season of Whitechapel: "Oh, he was just a cop. An ordinary cop." Paper says: What I want to be when I grow up: - rock star - artist - super hero - jewel smith - private detective "Well, that's how the dreams come crashing down! Onward to the next season!"

*Thinking*: "Sometimes I think if I am updating this comic blog too often and with useless stuff." *Thinking*: "But then I usually remember that this is my blog and I can do whatever I want with it."

"Well, now my postcrossing card expired! Why is not my mail going anywhere!?" "I-I-I s-s-st-still d-d-d-don't k-k-k-kn-know..." Nootti: Postcrossingissa vanhentuminen tapahtuu kortille, kun se on ollut matkassa 60 päivää. Kun kortti vanhentuu, se avaa uuden lähetyspaikan uudelle kortille. Lähetetyksi kortiksi ei vanhentunutta tietenkään lasketa, koska koodia ei olla rekisteröity vastaanottopaikassa. Vanhentuminen välttää ikävät tilanteet, joissa kaikki korttipaikat ovat täyttyneet korteilla, jotka ovat matkalla ikuisesti. Note: In postcrossing, a card expires after it has been traveling for 60 days. Expiring opens up a new sending slot, but naturally, an expired card does not count as a sent card, because its code has never been registered by the recipient. Expiring helps to prevent nasty situations where all sending slots are filled with cards that are traveling forever.

Last time I went to the meeting of metropolitan area comic bloggers, Hanna-Pirita invited me to visit her place, since I live almost in the neighbour. "And this is the person, whose blog I have read before my "career" even started! This is like Alice Cooper asking one to hang out! I felt like tossing myself on the floor to bow and chant I am not worthy." I promised to write some email, so we can arrange a meeting. "Hmm." Then I realized a problem; last time I have officially visited anyone was a looooong time ago. At friends' places, I just invade. I slouch around, read their magazines and ask questions about stuff, etc. At parties I don't behave that way, though. "Does this mag has a quiz?" "Yeah." "Can I fill it, or should I help with cooking?" "Bell peppers could be cut." So, I guess I got a little anxious. *Thinking*: "What am I gonna write? Do I need to bring a present? I would not want to come by, swinging two empty hands. I wonder if it's a problem that I don't drink coffee or even tea? What if I make a mess? What if I make a fool of myself?" The problem is not in Hanna-Pirita, or anyone else for that matter. My own social skills just happen to be, on scale 1-10, -25 and dropping. "Go away, Osku. I am sweeping my problems under the rug." No worries, I am trying to get my act together some time soon!

*Thinking*: [Blank] *Thinking*: "I just discussed about all possible drawing ideas. How come nothing comes out now?"

"You sounded just so guilty that I need to check the situation!" The cat had found some plastic covered wire. Confiscated.

One day on my way to work: "Have you seen The Shining? Remember the scene with the elevator and blood? It is going to happen here, if I can't get my pads." *Siiigh* "One blue L&M, big, no wait, normal size, no wait, I'll take Marlboro Gold instead. I need two, no, wait, one is enough, hey, where are the mildest beers, and I need a box of matches and maybe even..."

Pupujen piirtäminen rauhoittaa, kun katsoo super-jännittävää rikossarjaa.

Tulin testailleeksi juttuja.

Piirustin tällaisen kirjamessuilla, sarjakuvakeskuksen ständillä.

Viitaten yhteen edelliseen sarjikseen --> Klik-klik "What are you doing here, beneath the rug?" "Ummm... Cleaning up?" "Is this some incompetence thing again?" "...Maybe." "I can hold the rug up for you, but you really need to crawl out by yourself."

Saa antaa ehdotuksia tähtieläimiksi. En takaa, että kaikkia teen, mutta teen kuitenkin varmaan aika monta.

Saamelaiset uskoivat revontulien syntyvän, kun kettu huiskii hännällään hankia.

"I got the email sent. How wonderful, I can now take it easy for the rest of the day." "Bling! You have mail, LOL!" After ten seconds: *Cough* *Thinking*: "It is a bit dusty in here." * Thinking*: "Help, what is pressing me!?"

Half human, half...?

Teksti ylemmässä kuvassa on aika vaikeasti luettavissa, joten tässä on selkeämpänä: " Kattokaa tota läskipersettä! Höhöö! Läskii! Mä tappaisin itteni, jos oisin noin läski! Höhöhöö! Hei norsu, sirkus on Kaisaniemessä! " "Look at that fat arse! Hurhur! Faaaat! I'd kill myself if I was that fat! Hurhurhur! Hey elephant, the circus is in Kaisaniemi!" *Thinking*: "Fat? Well, yeah, but at the same time beautiful, lovely and on the top of that -- happy!"

"Guess, what's dumb? I am worrying over for not being a friend's favourite roleplayer." At the moment, I am surprisingly calm. Had my mental health problems taken over, the situation would be catastrophic. "Boohooaawaaah! I'll kill myself!" "In the end, there is nothing I can do to this 'problem'. Why should I worry?" "I guess this is how it feels like to be a functioning, mentally healthy adult." Although it would be cool to be someone's favourite something. "You are my number one favourite person!" "Thanks, you are making me blush!"

Referenssikuva oheisessa linkissä --> KLIK-KLIK

Viittaan seuraavaan bloggaajaan ja kissaan --> KLIK-KLIK "Some other comic blogger's cat goes 'sur sur sur' when purring. Can you do the same?" "Pröö pröö pröö!" "Oh well..." "Close enough, anyway." "Pröö pröö pröö!"

We were watching a tv-series some time ago. TV: "How wonderful! We'll be the couple everyone is jealous of!" "I don't think it is such a healthy goal. It would be better if they'd just get more friends." "By the way, we are the couple that everyone is jealous of." Well, not maybe everyone, but at least a couple of people. Hopefully they are jealous of us like this: "Wow, they have it going so good! I hope I can have the same someday!" And not like this: "They are so sickeningly happy together! I hope they break up!" "Here is a couple of tips that have made our relationship good. All tips do not necessarily work for all. Also, keep in mind that we have been real lucky to find a good partner in each other." - Appreciate your partner and their contribution in the household. "Thanks for the food!" "You're welcome!" "Thanks for doing the dishes!" - Open discussion and listening to each other. "I find this thing a problem." "I am offering this as a solution." "What would you like to get as a gift?" "Movie tickets would be nice. And you?" "I don't know, but I will show you once I know." - Same kind of values and goals. "I don't want children." "I understand." - Resilience in certain situations. "This project is very important to me." "I understand and agree to put up with it for now." - Playfulness "I am a ghost." "Hahaha!" - Being intoxicant-free helps Headlines: STABBED THE WIFE - alcohol played a part KILLED THEIR HUSBAND - shock photos CHEATED AND LEFT - "I was drunk" - Ex speaks up "My faith in humanity is dying." "Same here."

One day I was going to the grocery store, when a neighbour stopped me for a chat. "You are so beautiful and I love you." The situation was somewhat awkward for me. "Sorry, but my boyfriend would not be too happy about it." My neighbour backed off the situation immediately. "Okay, sorry sorry! Have a nice day!" On my way to the store I was relieved and pissed off. Thinking : "Why only being already spoken for prevents an unwanted approach?"

Malls are frustrating places, when one is totally broke. Luckily the society has not fucked up libraries yet. "So much to read again!"

Book title: The Sweetness at the Bottom of the Pie "Yeah, I'm keeping busy."

Should have stayed in bed.

Depression and anxiety disorder are MENTAL HEALTH problems. But still... I pluck my hair. It might also fall off on its own (more than usual). I grind my teeth, which wears down my set of teeth and causes headaches. Anxiety feels like a squeeze in the upper stomach. My concentration breaks off often, and then I get cuts, bruises and burns easily. Stress and a bad diet have their toll on my intestines and general digestion. I pluck and dig my ears until bleeding.

In the grocery store: Thinking: "Hmm..." "Uhhh..." At home: Thinking: "I could have bought that mustard."

Testailen juttuja ennen kuin alan väsäämään joululahjoja.

Referenssikuva täältä --> KLIK-KLIK Käytin lyikkäriä, mustekynää, promarker-tusseja ja akvarelli-puuvärejä (ilman vettä).

Ohessa vielä linkki postaukseen, joka minua inspiroi tähän epäkoherenttiin tajunnanvirtaan --> KLIK-KLIK Nyt kun mä linkitin sen, niin siitä varmaan tulee K:n blogiin joku outo kommentti. En tajua miksi. I was reading blog of Kuningatar Alkoholi . "Snuuurf..." The update in question was discussing how some people live and others just survive from one day to another, among other things. Also, the feeling of not belonging was mentioned. Thinking: "It hit really close to home. Mostly I felt like I'd like to help. The feeling of not belonging is familiar with me." "But sometimes I can't even help myself." This time of year is not helping. Even if I use daylight lamp. And take my nutrient pills. "Bottom's up!" I still often feel real tired. "Oh, it is half past eleven already?" All the hardest things get swept under the rug. "Maaaaybe I will write those emails some other time..." "Did my rambles have a point, too? Oh yeah, one can learn to cope with the feeling of not belonging. And there is people somewhere out there, where one does not feel like an outsider with. Epilogue about drawing this comic: Thinking: "Gee, odd flow of consciousness, again!" Thinking: "Well, sod it! I'll do better next time.

I was getting ready to sleep, Alex was watching TV. "I love that piece of music!" "Yeah yeah, I'll turn, I'll turn!" (* *Siiiigh* (* = lower Sivunoottina mainitaan, että nuotit ovat Vivaldin Talvesta, mutta se ei ollut se musiikinpätkä, jonka kuulin. Todellisuudessa en muista kuulemani pätkän nimeä, saati säveltäjää. Nuottisetti saatu oheisesta linkistä --> KLIK-KLIK

"I was planning to do a comic of how some people have less energy for things and how it needs to be conserved." "...But ironic enough, I don't have the energy for that right now. What a shitty rotten luck!"

I was using the "random blog" feature of the comic blog site, so I could take a look at some new stuff and find something to read. The saddest sight were the blogs, that have been updated maybe once or twice and then quit without any note. Thinking: "What happened to you? Did you not dare to continue? Did you lose your confidence? Maybe you did not have the energy to continue?" "Hey, starting comic blogger! Don't give up hope, do continue with courage! If no one else reads your stuff, leave a link here. I love to read!" "...Um, well yeah... Sometimes blogs just get forgotten... Nothing wrong with that... Ahem... Not that I would ever do such a thing... Eheheheh..."

"Good afternoon! This is the ticket inspection!" "Damn it!" "Crud!" "Well fu..." "Could I see your ID, please?" Me thinking: "I gotta remember to buy more days to the transport pass..."

One day: Me thinking: "Tomorrow, if nothing else comes up, I will wash the dishes and be super active!" The next morning: Me thinking: "Oh hell, someone please put me out of my misery!" "Bläääööörgh!!!" I washed the dishes anyway. "Vomiting is no fun. If your stomach is turning in a way that you know you're gonna vomit, eat a banana or another fruit if possible. It is better than vomiting out just stomach acid and liquids. Plus fruit smells better than a sandwich, when coming up."

Me thinking: "If something vexes me today, it is the thing how I wait for a work shift suggestion for the whole day. ...And then I get some, when I have started something time-consuming like laundry washing or cooking!"

I once dreamed there was a spa department in the basement of the house I live in. In the morning, I was maybe a little disappointed.

At work, on a coffee break. Ellu's text message: "Are you coming at [friend's] party on Friday?" Me: "Well, this is awkward. I have not received any invitation..." ~*~ Nootti: Ystävä on satavarma siitä, että on kutsun lähettänyt. Kadonnut sitten varmaan bittiavaruuteen. Ikävä kyllä olen estynyt osallistumasta. :(

"Sisälläni käy taistelu. Se on kamala taistelu kahden suden välillä. Toinen on paha - hän edustaa vihaa, kateutta, surua, katumusta, ahneutta, ylimielisyyttä, itsesääliä, syyllisyyttä, mielipahaa, alemmuutta, valheita, väärää ylpeyttä, ylemmyyden tunnetta ja egoa. Toinen on hyvä - hän edustaa iloa, rauhaa, toivoa, tyyneyttä, nöyryyttä, suopeutta, hyväntahtoisuutta, empatiaa, anteliaisuutta, totuutta, laupeutta ja luottamusta. Sama taistelu käy sinun sisälläsi, ja kaikkien ihmisten sisällä. Se voittaa, jota enemmän ruokit." -- Amerikan alkuperäiskansojen keskuudessa kerrottua tarinaa mukaillen

Eilen, torstain sarjisbloggaaja-tapaamisessa, minulle osoitettiin miten rintani asettuvat samoihin riveihin sämpylöiden kanssa. Mikä lie freudilainen lipsahdus piirrosmuodossa. Me thinking: "Two trays of cookies, one tray of giant bread rolls. I wonder if this is enough."

Tavallisista tavoistani poiketen en tarjoa oheiselle sarjakuvalle englanninkielistä käännöstä. Käännös tullee liitettyä sarjikseen lähipäivinä. Bloginpitäjä pahoittelee tilannetta. Unlike my usual habits, this comic will not be provided with English translation. Translation will be added during the upcoming days. Sorry for any inconvenience.

In UFF store: "Is that it?" "Hmm..." "It is~" "I found just the thing I was looking for." "That's nice. 4 euros, please." "Thank you and good bye." "Bye bye!" "Osku is going to be so happy!" Clerk thinking: "Osku...?" At home: "There you go!" ~*~ Olen kuullut paljon kritiikkiä UFFin myymälöistä viime aikoina, joten olisi kivaa, jos joku voisi vinkata muita kirppiksiä tai kierrätettyjen vaatteiden myymälöitä. Osku joskus pureksii (teko)turkispallerot pilalle, joten olisi kiva löytää aika ajoin uusia (noin kananmunan kokoisia).

Mia is listening to music Melodysheepin tekemä Bob Ross remixaus, Happy Little Clouds: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLO7tCdBVrA

Kata's text message: "My mom is a total fan of your blog!" "My greetings to Kata's mom! You are the best, never ever go changing!"

Happened a couple of years ago: Random Internet Acquaintance: "Look at me, how horrible I look!" RIA: "So horribly fat!" Me: "..." Me: "Sorry, I am not going to join that self bad mouthing, at all." Nowadays: Me: "And I won't start now, either."

"Nothing else matters, but I would like my joy of living and mental health baaaaack..." "Ask Easter Bunny in the spring!"

Whenever I read your medical report, it makes me feel that you killed yourself. I suppose I should not say this, but sometimes I feel like you are trying to kill me on the side. [bill of 700 EUR] Me thinking: " Where ever do I rip this kind of money? "

"I have gossip for you." "?" "H has engaged herself with her boyfriend(*. And pregnant again." (*The said boyfriend is 19 years younger than H. H has three children already. "..." "Yikes!" "Yeah, that kinda stuff." Nootti: Sinänsä minulle on aika sama, mitä muut elämällään tekevät, mutta tuttavan käytös poikkeaa vähän tavanomaisesta. Tuttavani otti eron miehestään, vaihtoi 19-vuotiaaseen, on nyt kihloissa ja raskaana. Esikoisensa ja poikaystävän ikäero on n. 6 vuotta. Reaktioni saattoi olla aika lähelle Fox Mulderin reaktiota oheisessa pätkässä (n. 0:11 kohdalla) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLLBrh_PeT4 Videota en omista.

"Pretty many people seem to have posted a summary of their gone year. I could try the same." "I even had to check my past Facebook updates. Apparently I was real tired." "In January I got me some drawing equipment and in February I started this blog. Good decision!" "March-April I was just tired, and fasting, sorts. I did not eat meat, fish, sweets or salty snacks." In May we began to work up the move to Vantaa. In June, sorrow made its home in our household. My father got really sick and died. I am still mourning. In July, my father was sent to his last trip. Lots of nice things happened during the summer, but they were shadowed by his death. "I was also pretty lonely in Vantaa, with no friends nearby..." "Luckily, on 7th of August, I made the best decision of the whole year and attended the comic meeting. It was a great birthday gift for my lonely soul, to get to meet such admirable people!" The autumn was pretty much tired. Things did not go as planned. I wanted to get us another cat, but that did not work out. During December I was still tired, also super busy. From home to work. From work to home." Me thinking: "There has not been much time to work the relationship. It distresses me." Me thinking: "On the other hand, I get a nice pay on pay day. I will be able to get me those sleeping pills. Maybe the new year will be better slept!"

"No need to help. I might still need these." "The cat just tosses my papers to the trash!"

I was visiting Ellu. "I really truly can't remember what I was supposed to draw about the visit." We watched a movie. "I have just some trash in my eye." "I have a cold." "Ellu drew a baby vampire and a kitten!" Se katsomamme elokuva oli Näin Koulutat Lohikäärmeesi 2. The movie we watched was How To Train Your Dragon 2.

Kaverin hahmo, joka luulee olevansa Cupido. Oikeasti hänellä ei ole siipiä, enkä varmaan uskaltaisi antaa hänelle jousta ja nuolia (edes noin heppoisen näköisiä).

Cats, cats everywhere... "It would be wonderful if they all could be petted." "Yeah."

"I have some advice for social interacting." "Do NOT make remarks of other people's eating." "First of all, it is not polite. Second, every person has a right to feed and nourish themselves as they see fit. Third, you really can't be sure what you trigger." Many people can have an eating disorder. One can't always see it outside. HEALTHY? SICK? SICK? ??? WHAT? Following comment... "Are you seriously going to eat all that?" ...Can spark following behaviour: "You sure did take your time in the loo!" "I feel a little sick..." Thinking: "I feel a tad woozy... Today I'll only drink a sip of water and eat one sunflower seed..." "Also, making remarks of small amount of food or dietary habits is not polite." "Yeah, but how about HEALTH!" "That is still person's own business. There is no moral obligation to be healthy." "Pfft, you are just over sensitive. And fat." "And you have a small dick, and even that grows between your shoulders." ~*~ Kirjoittajan nootti: Se joka on oikeasti huolissaan toisen ihmisen terveydestä, voi ottaa tämän sivuun ja kysyä tämän terveydentilasta. Jos joku kahvipöydässä rohmuaa kaikki pikkuleivät, on kyse enemmän käytöstavoista, ei syömistavoista. Author's note: The one who is genuinely concerned of other person's health can take the person aside and ask about their health situation. If someone hogs all the cookies at a party, then it is more of a manners problem, not an eating problem. ~*~ Kirjoittajan nootti II: Jälkikäteen ajatellen, toisen mulkusta tai sen koosta puhuminen on suhteellisen lapsellista ja vahvistaa sitä käsitystä, että toisen ihmisen sukupuolielimet tai niiden koko merkkaisivat jotenkin ihmisen paremmuutta tai huonoutta - mikä ei ole tietenkään totta. Vastaavaksi - ja toivottavasti paremmaksi - huomautukseksi voisi sopia paremmin "ja sulla näyttää olevan harteiden välissä silkkaa paskaa", jos toinen ihminen tulee arvostelemaan ruokavalintoja tai annoskokoa. Author's note II: Thinking this afterwards, using other person's dick or dick size is relatively childish and validates the idea that other people's genitalia or size makes them either better or worse people, which is not true. As an alternative - hopefully a better - comeback one could use: "And you seem to have only shit in between your shoulders", in case of anyone making remarks of food choices or portion sizes.

"Well then, what's in the email?" Email message: "You have a nice blog. : )" "!!!" Note on the wall: This is the reason to continue Me thinking: "This is so heavy, I might not be able to get some sleep tonight!" Me thinking: "Although it is fun to be unable to sleep because of something nice, for a change."

First housing cooperative: "Laundry day is the best day of the week!" Second housing cooperative: "Best day of the week!" Third housing cooperative: "I just want to wash my laundry in peace! Is it too much to ask to be let to start on my own turn!? Stupid antihousewives!"

Me thinking: "Dogs!" Me thinking: "Dog!" Me thinking: "Dogs!" Me: "Someone might think that I have a dog fever..." Santeri: "That's true."

This happened during summer 2014. I can't mention your name, or draw you as a recognizable character, in case you broke your employer's rules. It was a rainy summer day. My father had recently passed away and I was moving to an unknown city. Money situation was tight, so tight I even had to take cash from my late father's wallet. You are an acquaintance of mine, but I am not sure if you knew my situation. I wanted to buy a ticket. I was on my way to Hyvinkää to deal with moving things. You printed me a complimentary ticket. My money you did not take. Your friendly gesture back then lifted me up from the depressive swamp my mind was in. My mental health was way off balance at that time. I just wanted to do all kinds of nasty things to myself. You might have saved my life on that day. "For that I will be eternally grateful for you."

"This is a public apology to the neighbours I might have annoyed." You might have heard a following noise: "EAAAAAEEEAAAAAEEEEAAEIIIIH!" That was me. "I have been a little distressed." Email: "Cruise has been cancelled because the majority chose theater, lol!" Me: "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!" (I wanted to go to the cruise) Text message: "Now there is an opening for the best shift ever in the best work place ever. Book the shift with following code (part of the text is missing, lol)". Me: "AAAAAAAAAH!!" (I was without work the whole week, and reserving shifts of often game of seconds).

Olen ollut viime aikoina erityisen ahdistunut, joten päästelin höyryjä piirrosmuodossa. Your opinion has been noted - now you can go to hell! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc37L566734 Omistettu mm. Anonyymi A:lle ja Kari Leppäselle. "There are monsters out in the cosmos That can swallow entire stars That can destroy space itself Completely invisible Anything that strays too close will be pulled in" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7e5-0t0pTF0 Videoista en omista mitään. Kaikki videoiden materiaali kuuluu niiden alkuperäisille tekijöille.

Sama hahmo kuin viimeksi, tällä kertaa vain paremmin.

"My blog will have an anniversary soon. The first post was drawn on January 26th and it was published February 22nd. I hope I have improved a little in a year." "I was wondering if I should celebrate this anniversary somehow. I would like to draw reader requests, but I am not sure if I have enough drive for it... I take any suggestions for celebration!" I even discussed this anniversary with my BF: "Should one think of something for the anniversary?" "Well..." "We could rent a car and take a day trip to someplace new!" "Huh?" "No, I meant blog anniversary! Although a trip would be nice idea too!" "Oh!"

[flock of pigeons cooing] Me: "You guys have something nice there to peck?"

One night I dreamed: "Aaaah! So many open shifts! I'll book them all! Even the early ones!" Five minutes later: Thinking: "Gee wiz, these all are to that racist shop. As a protest, I won't go, then..." First work morning: Employer on the phone: "Why aren't you at work?" "Wha?" "W-w-well, I d-d-don't want to s-sell h-hood starch an-and hanging rope..." Then I woke up: "Yes, I don't have work!" "Well shiiiiet, I don't have work!"