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(Sometimes, when I open my mouth, words come out. Such as: Love. Feminism. Anal stimulation. Sometimes the words make sense. Sometimes they don't. Which does not happen very often because I am a smart, capable young man.) Greetings Earthlings! // My name is Niko-Petteri Niva, and I'll be selling my comics in Oulu Comic Festival's Comic Oasis on Saturday, November 11th, 11AM till 7PM! Don't ask me why I'm naked! // Tomorrow, Thursday 5th, the festival opens and seminar stuff will happen. In the evening, comic meeting in Snooker Time Bar. / (Jupe:) Get dressed now. // On Friday, Nordic Comic Competition winners will be rewarded and 2016 competition theme announced. // In the evening, in (Kulttuuri)Bingo, Comic Ink Club. See Tiitu Takalo in the flesh! / Hiya. Sunnuntaina näyttelyesittelykierroksia, katsokaa internetistä. / On Sunday, exhibition tours, see the internet for more information. ⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶⒶ http://www.oulucomics.com/15/program/ Kulttuurikeskus Valve & Oulun sarjakuvakeskus Hallituskatu 7, Oulu Kulttuuribingo Mäkelininkatu 29, Oulu Snooker Time Bar Asemakatu 28, Oulu

"I am going to beat the universe in its own game." Oulu Comic Festival came and went. // In the meanwhile, sad news shook the city. // Spare a loose coin? / "Coin Tane" was known to the entire city. // Um // Sure, just a sec. / Thank you very much. / (Winter or spring 2012 or 2013.) / Most encounters were brief but warm-hearted. No need for inane details such as seasons. // One would absent-mindedly spare change, other would shoot the breeze, third treat to salmon soup. / Anyone with a dash of Oulu inside them wouldn't dream of saying 'no way!' to Tane. // The news came to the internet and also my knowledhe via Tane's favourite money game machine. / To Coin Tane! / (Festival Friday, instead of opening ceremony.)

Olen ääliö enkä tullut maininneeksi että merkinnässä esiintyvä pikkurouva on minun rakas äiti :DDdD Tai sit oletin vaan et tottaKAI kaikki muistaa viime vuoden Hector-merkinnän! Anyway katsokaa

monday. monday. monday but drunk maybe. monday. monday but drunk. saturday. ???monday? (days of the week with NIXU & NIXU!) "what if i'll end up in a job (in my field) that robs me of time to make comics [OR ENERGY] b.r. 'young mister time management' p.s. i guess i just did make a comic, silly me." Game Lab ends on Friday. / Thesis work has barely begun, after a long fall semester. / Soon. I will be FREE.

December 19th, last day in Oulu Game Lab... // Hey Niels, we can't make it to your going-away party so we wanted to say goodbye while we have a chance. // Good luck to you, you're a real friend! / Same to you, it's been a privilege to work with you! // (Going-away party / Say goodbye / Good luck / Friend) Niels is leaving, Niels is leaving, Niels is leaving... // Niko, I have good and/or bad news. // So I called the principle of Liminka School Of Arts and he said I could begin my studies in February. Social security is busting my balls already and I have no choice but to move out of Oulu and live in the school campus... I'm Moving In February // I've got to do something with my life. Well, that was some crying there. Gotta go to the going-away party now. / See ya. // RIP me, cause of death: dehydration from crying and drinking alcohol. // Then I spent Christmas at my parents' and yeah. // (Socks / Hand towels / Bed sheets) // ALSO I GUESS I FOUND A NEW ROOMMATE WHILE DRAWING THIS ENTRY, FIND OUT WHO IN THE NEXT ENTRY OMG!!!???

4AM, January 4th, 2016. Ooh look at me getting the date right on first try. / Shoulda bought melatonin earlier today. / Come play with me, forever and ever. // HELLO IT IS I A BRAIN / (Sigh) Took you long enough... // LET US TALK ABOUT YOUR THESIS OR WHAT / Normally I'd tell you to wait till morning, but experience tells me... // ...Not gonna happen. / HAVE YOU PLANNED HAVE YOU SCHEDULED // DID YOU DO ANY SINGLE THING LAST YEAR HUH? WILL YOU BECOME (gasp!) MEDIOCRE??? (Grocery store cashier ahoy! No, night-shift cleaning!) Yes - I - Can!!! // I've done loads of shit last year! Shit to be proud of, big shit, valuable shit! Two zines, participated in a third, as well as an entire book of a comic anthology! And, oh right: made an entire mother fucking GAME with a kick-ass team during the entirety of 2015. And a little winter depression renders it all pointless, you say? / (I also participated in two art exhibitions and sold my comics literally anywhere with people and cash money.) // So yeah, about that thesis: I can totally pull off big projects, so there. Good night. // ...Although this whole show sure didn't help me get any sleep at all! [???pöö]

...Tai painokelpoista! :D (I spent my 25th birthday weekend in Helsinki. Had some beer and went to a gig. Nothing special, I'm humble like that. And lazy.) / After such a long hiatus, and after reaching such a meaningful age, one would assume that I would update with something a bit more exciting. Unfortunately, all I did was either unprintable or rather quite dull. I'd love to make a new zine for the 10th Tampere Comic Festival, but not only do I need to graduate my stupid ass, / I've also been commissioned an animal rights or consumerism related comic for QueerFemZine 1/16. / Today I was interviewed for the Liminka School of Arts 50 year anniversary book, and for March I myself will interview a sexworker for Voima magazine. SO FUCKING PROFESSIONAL, I AM.

Hullo! I am highly educated and infinitely obedient little worker with absolutely no authority problems whatsoever! I love selling my labour to anyone who asks, I'm not a member of any unions and I never cry from stress! Ever! // Sigh...

29.1.-3.2.2016. (Art school) / (Roosa's stuff) / (Your turn!) / (Nosse's stuff) / Welcome to Heinäpää) // Feels weird as well. Roosa and I've been BFF's for 5½ years, (ever since we moved to Oulu unbeknownst to each other!) and 1½ years as roommates. // Luckily she won't move far away. Art school's been a home to me, too! // BYE BYE BABY, like we always said when leaving the house! Dear god who is that??! // Why, that's Nosse! // Nosse moved to Oulu a year ago and went to Game Lab with me. Now he teaches game graphics there, as well as being the AD of a game company. / Although he's merely 21 years old! // "But how did you end up roommates?" / Military service, carnivore, heterosexual, tidy, organized / Anything but. / I might not be tidy but I'm cool as hell, a-huh-huh-huh. / ...You tell me. // I suppose he things we have in common matter more. / MEMES LOL. / Also splitting the rent 'n shit. OMG kattokaa miten söpö sivu vanhasta blogista jossa Roosa/Woosan ensiesiintyminen!

Huh kiirettä! En ehdi ajatella yhtään ajatusta loppuun asti, ja deadlinet hönkii. Onneksi ei tarvihe näläkää vielä kärsiä, mutta valmistuminen ja apurahat maittaisi - kesätöitäkin tekisin oikein mielelläni jos luoja suo. Mutta kun kerran on pitänyt blogia laiminlyödä taas kerran, niin kattelkaapa täsä että mitä oon saanu aikaan päiväkirjailun sijaan. Hilipati pippan! "Kappaleet" (työnimi), OAMK 2016. "Haastattelu", Antimilitaristi-lehti 1/2016. "Kappaleet"-konseptitaidetta, OAMK 2016. Paratiisi, QFemZine 1/2016.

Tell Antti I'm good to go. // Phew. You guessed it! I did drag at my friends' wedding, my persona being called "mustelMILLA." // Of course, not everything went as planned... / I forgot my tights at home! // Hair in my face... // *Screams internally as the chair collapses* / Also I forgot to introduce myself on-stage, as well as butchering my speech in general. // But the wedding crowd ate it right up! / (Mother:) I love drag! / (Sister:) You make me jealous of your legs! Please attend my friend's wedding in June! // I had a blast, I'd do it all again! Milla and I thank the audience, and most of all congratulations to the wedding couples! PHOTOS OF THE SHOW:

I promised to look after my friend's cat over the winter break. / Since I'm not traveling, I might as well make myself useful. / Have a complimentary 24-pack as thanks. // What was I thinking?! I can't take care of a living creature! / Sup, I'm Lurjus ['scallywag' in English.] / I can barely keep myself fed and dry! // No problem dude, I'm familiar with handling animals. // Everyday life with a new roommate: / Wake up ape, I'm bored. / Out of my way ape, can't you see I'm walking here. / Battle scar. / We didn't have anything else to use as a toy... (Fake whip from my drag gig.) / TESTICLE! // At least we don't need to walk her... / I'm quite content with hanging out on the balcony.

On my way to Tampere I got an idea for the third issue of HeteroseXual Animals. / (Bag full of old comics) / So fucking typical. // Friday: At Emma's I got plenty of cat therapy from two baldies! / This isn't how my hair looks like irl but who cares. // Saturday: / Small Press Limbo would've been more fitting a title. / At least I have a table now. Last year they ran out in two hours. / I already sold out of my zine, see ya! Afternoon: Antimilitarist comic anthology panel convo. / Activism - Accessibility - Inclusiveness - I'm wearing water mugs as goggles with the help of underpressure! / (Actually I said a lot of smart stuff about war traumas, picture interpretation, and the power and position of humor in war-related discourse. // But aren't pioneers the ones who're disabling those landmines? What're you gonna say about that??? // Who says it should be militarist forces doing all that in the future? Sounds a bit like devil's advocacy to me. // I haven't researched this particular subject, so no comment. / Same here. / Same here. / Same here. / (A thought which I had hours later. Not that it would've done any good anyway. Sunday: / Tired. Hungry. The combination of which incapacitates my brain activity making it all too easy to fall into the trap of intrusive thoughts such as: I'm lazy! Bad! Mean! Shit! Dumb! Slow! / I'll go wait on that train now. / Already? Okay, see you in the summer. // Nonetheless I had a blast seeing all my friends, colleagues and blog readers. I'll see all y'all again in comic events, punk gigs and local pubs. Niko-Petteri Niva loves you! <3<3<3

Butch women and femme men make me so happy. // I hope they have a good day today. / I found a coin! / I have just the right amount of chips for my dip! // I love you, butch women and femme men. FACEBOOK EVENT FACEBOON EVENT FACEBOOK EVENT But other than that, I seem to have neglected my blog yet again. On the other hand, I'm certainly not the only blogger who updates fewer than once a week. Not to mention regularly! Therefore, I choose not to feel sorry for it. / (Blogging, upon leaving my head into the trashbin:) Something's got to give. / (Life skills:) Welcome to the club. / (Email:) To: Tutoring teacher. Re: Kill me immediately. Best regards, (student code.) // Please come to Liminka School Of Arts 50 year anniversary party on Friday April 15th! Stuff will happen there.

"I should probably clean up my online presence for the sake of my future employment potential but then again we're all gonna die with our belfies beamed into space." Digital mixed media. (2016) Thank you, motivational poster! Thank you so much for believing in me! Dumpster diving with the immigrant mother: / Get your hippie hands off of our rotten apples, Love: The Store Owner. / They even bothered to pour yoghurt all over the biowaste this time. / Could be worse... Stores in Helsinki would pour chicken marinade. And one store got sued for poisoning their trash! // (In a start-up company, no salary for four months) / I'm studying in a field that barely employs anyone. Should I switch profession? / Nothing but art truly interests me. / (No apartment, hangs around with us for a few days) After my student allowance stops flowing, that interest will starve me to death. "Fuck, I never remember the WiFi password for my cat." Mixed media (2016) "Plus, I might have sent a bunch of job applications with a picture of me smiling blissfully, my bedroom wall full of pictures of hunky sweaty men." Visual poetry (2016)

This one's empty, too! / I bet Mother's day had grocery stores empty out their trash early. // Holy shit! // Hey, do you need an ambulance? I tried to call one but they just said I'm good to walk by myself. / Those fuckers. Hop in, where do you live? / Nearby. / Fuck, I've seen too many shitty movies about shady hitchhikers. Where is my solidarity? ...Where is my wallet? // Thank you guys so much, you shouldn't have. / Oh nonsense. // I'm so glad there are still people like you. / Good night, take care. // Then I found this kick-ass fucking coffee table from the trash pick-up. / (No food nowhere though.)

At this particular moment / when the apartment building next door is almost complete / I've left house for the first time in a week / and my new shoes don't hurt my feet anymore. // (Spring cold? Hay fever? Hypochondria? Who knows!) // I've enrolled, attended, begun / with no clue if I'll ever complete, finish, commit. // Something in me / lifted the veil of death from my face / and let the light blind me. // From light to dark, from dark to light / and never just dim enough.

(The Holy Job Tree) // What a lovely job I have found! / The Job Tree has something for every unemployed individual in Finland. The Job Tree loves you. // (KELA: Fuck your student grants, lol.) / (Job Centre: Hiring a night cleaner with 50 years of experience. Adequate working hours not guaranteed.)

Seitanrock, powered by Animal Liberation Oulu. / I missed the only band I knew beforehand; Had an accident at home. // An ellipse! Because you can guess what happened next! / You should've left it like that. So fuckin' punk rock! / I wasn't ready to commit to that. / (Ljuba borrowed me her trimmer.) // However the other performers were super cool as well! // (Ciprian from Romania) / I genuinely thought this would be a satanic festival cause I didn't know that seitan is an actual dish and not just a Finnish way of writing Satan. / You are a living stereotype. After supporting animal rights it was time to support human rights. / (Oulu LGBT organization 30 year anniversary! Also give us money we're broke as hell, oops.) / It was already so late that I only paid the membership fee and had a pint or two. // On Sunday, I heard the news about Orlando shooting. / Pride events are still necessary. The world is not completed. There's still work. Equal marriage and everything else is just the beginning. WE WILL NOT GIVE IN TO FEAR. NOR WILL WE FEED IT.

Roosa's new place last week's Monday. / I need some help painting the signs for Pikipop Festival, wanna help? / I'd love to be able to see Sydän, sydän for free! // I listened to Sydän, sydän for the entirety of highschool back when I was a cute little artsy hippie. / I wish I lived in a self-sustainable commune! During the work week I got mail from the study grant board. No student allowance for me! (/ (The spirits of Minor Bureaucratic Inconvenience and Non-Existent Ability To Handle Stress hovering around me) / Welp, time to die. // Sydän, sydän played an a-ok gig, after which: / (Some friend of a friend from OGL) / You'd be taken more seriously in the work industry if you didn't act so gay. That's just the way the world works, I ain't got nothing to do with that. In the work industry, everybody's asexual.

I missed Helsinki Pride because of a family reunion. // My big brother was supposed to be there too but he had a bicycle accident. / I was sort of disappointed because I haven't seen him in a couple of years. // The fifty to sixty Niva's will suffice. / Hi Niko! Remember me? / Fuck no! I don't understand why Pride has to be so loud and flamboyant. Wouldn't gays and tr***ies be taken more seriously if they behaved like normal people? Real homosexuality isn't that in-your-face, blah blah blah... / OH MY GOD. // Pride PARADE is supposed to be funny! Pride week and month, on the other hand, are chock full of "serious" information. / (Anal sex 101, Tove Jansson exhibition, Comics workshop, Living Library, HIV-checkpoint, Trans group...) // The main parade is a place of happiness! We have a right to exhibit mirth in public! Every parade has scantily clad folks! Helsinki Samba Festival? Mardi Gras? Si? // If the straights' respect towards LGBT people (or yours, dear author) relies on us conforming to your norms... / (Dresses according to gender norm, doesn't take up any space at all, not a single word of their spouses, sits down and shuts up forever. Dysphoria? What's that? Everything is a-fucking-okay!) // ...I've for news for you: You're still a homophobic P.O.S.! / Oooh! A dude wears makeup because it's a fun thing to do! Escándalo! *Jaa, skanneri söi ohuemmat tussit ja piirtopöytäkin kärhämöi viimeisessä ruudussa. Hauskalla meikkaamisella tarkoitan sitä, että meikkaamisen harrastaminen on voimauttavaa ja mukavaa, en sitä että meikkaava poika olisi automaattisesti hassu ja naurettava.

https://hullutpaivat.bandcamp.com/ https://open.spotify.com/album/4rbTKnb0Xb6vywfPjP8kdf

Punk festival! / I was at the info table so I got in for free. Tried to sell old zines on the side to be able to buy the official festival t-shirt but we ran out of small and medium shirts before I managed to gather up the cash. // After my shift: / My goal tonight is the following: // Get booze. Get cigarettes. Get sum sweet luvin'! / You're two slots out of three, then. ((Joo minä vahingossa juhlatupakoinnin aloitin taasen. Kyllä kesä kuivaa minkä kasteleekin! Kiitos tupakkalakko 1.1.-1.6.2016?)) I busted my heel bone at the Foward (JPN) gig. // Probably just a minor fracture, the pain is merely irritating. / Gotta sillywalk and eat painkillers for a while is all. / (I made the mistake of checking out pictures of severely broken heel bones. Ew, ew, ew, ew, ew.) In the moshpit there was a cute bear boy who made out with me impromptu. / What a nice butt! / Bear boy if you're reading this my email is nikopniva@gmail.com! // Then I had to go to bed because Janne was visiting from another city and needed a place to stay. / Bear boy! / Butt! / Three out of three!

MORO PASKOILLE! Kävi niin, että mun pitää jälleen lypsää itselleni irtopisteitä koulusta kesäkuukausien aikana valmistuakseni edes jokseenkin säädyllisen aikavälin puitteissa. Mikäpä olisikaan ihanampaa kuin ottaa pienprojektiksi samaa paskaa mitä teen ihan omaksi huvikseni? Koska tein tämän yhdessä kuukaudessa samalla opparia ja byrokratiaa jongleeraten, tuli tästä Hetskusta ihan Paska. Olisi kuitenkin sääli jos se jäisi vain kovalevylle homehtumaan, joten miksei julkaista sitä internetissä, kuten ensimmäiset Hetskut? Joten, guys and gals and nonbinary pals: HETEROSEXUAL ANIMALS PART KOLME. ENJOY. paina kuvaa päästäksesi lukemaan! yow-zah!

Yay, I'll be able to pay rent and bills. Took a bus to Tampere for an anarchist festival! I was supposed to go to Puntalarock but then I remembered I had a job gig the same weekend. Wedding photoshoot. / Eight hours later: *doorbell* / Good morning Jiipu sorry I woke you up do you have coffee what's up baby!!! / ????? Starting party. / My heelbone is still sore from the other day. This bumpy yard isn't helping, either. Gotta go pee... / *smothered shrieking* Friday morning my foot hurt like hell. As I stayed in Jiipu's place for a bit, her commune buddies were super helpful regarding painkillers and first aid. / And Hirvitalo had a single crutch! Short one, but still. Zine workshop. / *writing machine noises* / I wrote a semi-gross erotic poem. Pub quiz. / Let uss name our team "Limp Gays", to commemorate our busted feet. // Antti knew EVERYTHING. / 12) How many eyelashes did Emma Goldman's second cousin have? / It's a trick question. They had a orange CAT that hated Mondays. And he had 64 eyelashes. On Saturday I missed the transgender conversation s well as the one about black-pink organizing. // Intersectional feminism: / Anarchism ought to be inherently feminist. / Sure, but words carry weight and meaning. Only by using those words can one make these topics and issues visible. Feminist collective: Cat feminism! / Heterosexist dichotomy projcted unto non-human animals etc intersectional obscurities. // Russia 1917 -> Anarchy in Helsinki. / This is a list of Finnish millionaires (or Helsinkiites, can't remember). They must all be killed. / HEY! Why's my name not on this list!? Am I not important enough for you rebels!?? Taxi to Jiipu's place and back home in the morning. / You so gotta move to Tampere! / I will, after I graduate. So, around new year's? / Good night. Welcome to Tampere.

ASK ME KWESTIONS I WILL START ANSWERING NEXT WEEK OKAY BYE

Lauttasatama, näkymä lintutornista ja työttömyysturvalausunto. / Ferry pier, view from the birdwatch, and testimonial for unemployment security. Hirviä, puolukkapaikka ja verokortti. / Moose, lingonberry patch, and tax card. Usvainen tie, mätäs ja opintotukipäätös. / Mist on the roadway, tussock, and student grant resolution.

Oululaiset (keski-ikäiset) on kyl joskus vähän muutosvastarintaisia änkyröitä :----D Useimmiten oon piirtäny itseni kaljukissana, mutta ehkä piirtohetkellä oli opossumimaisempi olo villapaitoineni kaikkineni. Nää on siis jo viime viikolta mutten ehtinyt/jaksanut värittää kun olin jo ehtinyt hailuotoilla.

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Oulu Comics Festival 2016! A.K.A. the last comics festival of the year. To me at least? I don't remember when Necrocomicon of Turku is. Anyway... /This year I didn't sell zines anywhere no wait sorry I did! In Tampere Kuplii in March. But other than that I've been focusing on my thesis. // And now it's done! The comic production, not the written thesis. // On display in the campus gallery, way outside of the city center... The first festival day ended with the traditional first-Thursday-of-month Comic Meeting. / St. Michael - Penalty for speaking in fake Irish accent is 20€. // Leon Stekla & Gon Rodher: Your zines are all over Malmö, a friend of mine is a superfan of yours! / Oh, cool. / (International superstar!) Friday: Tusen Serier Collective: Dubbelmoral. // Burlesque! Regiina Dieder channeling Black Peider. // In the great tradition of Peider-ism, Regiina flailed audience members across the stage. / You weigh like 20 kilos. // Batsinthe Belfry giving occult realness, mama. Gonzalo was busy painting the mural in Kulttuuribingo. / We're going back to Malmö on Sunday. / Insane. // Oh yeah! Earlier on Friday I signed my job contract! / (Youth employment services) // No, it's not the snow shoveling job. I quit just in time before first snow fell. / I got a job in my own field, thanks anyway. / Okie-dokie, thank you and goodbye. / It's not like I would've wanted to start waking up three in the morning to shovel some snow... Saturday: Comics Oasis. / Since I'll soon be a job-having individual I might as well splurge on some comics! // I interviewed Gonzalo. / Who are you what do you do howzit hangin' / Yeh. / (Too much coffee - Creeping hangover / Slightly hysterical) // You did good. (Jarkko the M.C.) Gonzalo "Gon Rodher" de las Heras on espanjalainen Malmössä työskentelevä monitaiteilija, joka osallistui mm. pohjoismaiseen sarjakuvakilpailuun ja maalaa muraaleja minkä ehtii. / Gon Rodher, born and schooled in Spain, lives and works in Malmö, Sweden - is a multidisciplinary artist who took part in the Nordic Comics Competition and paints murals like there's no tomorrow. Afterparty in sports bar Snooker Time. / (Noise, clink, clang, drum noises) / (I didn't see the artist so I drew them as an anonymous blob à la Jiipu Uusitalo .) / They played before Jyrki Nissinen, not at the same time. // You've got to come visit Malmö! You made us feel really warm and welcome in Oulu. / (Friendship! Companionship! Compliments and positive feedback! Validation!) / Now I know what I'll save my paychecks on. Heterosexual invasion in the gay bar. / Snooker Time closed for the night and all the other bars were crowded. / I see. / "You come to my house." // The fifth annual Oulu Comics Festival was a full ten. Now I shall drown myself in my deadlines and start my new job tomorrow in the city-funded art project. Ciao!

I'm going to move out of Oulu after school. / (All my friends:) Nooo! Everybody's moving out! Please stay! Boo-hoo! // Fine. Help me find a stable job and a boyfriend and I'll stay. // ... // Need help moving? / Help me carry my laundry machine, will ya.

(Song of the day: "Has the bad dream ended now?") / I've decided to dare try new things. / (HIV Center volunteer training) Say yes instead of no. I owe it to myself. / I can always cancel stuff I consider I can't do after all! // After all those times that I couldn't bring myself to anything.

Work has sucked out all my time and energy to update my blog. / But is it not a positive problem? I'm so caught up on a job in my own field that I don't have time to focus on such frivolous things as blogging! / Since comic blogging is the most important portfolio for a comic artist, is it not its purpose to give me an actual job and make itself obsolete? // HOW ARE YOU, NIXU? / I finished the children's book illustrations. // I don't know the name of the book, nor have I read it, but the team gave me a Christmas postcard and non-vegan chocolate as a thanks. / (Boob milk) Work is fun! I'm still confused about the fact that I have a job in my own field all up until spring. // MY inherent aversion of authority has raised its head. // (Two evil men, one of whom looks like Timo Hännikäinen, dangling my career above my head.) / Jump, boy! Ha-ha-haw! / No! Please be kind, o boss men! // (In reality:) / I lived in a commune twenty years ago. / I lived in one thirty years ago. / I did fifty years ago! AND I punched a cop at Woodstock! By the way Niko, you can leave early today. Merry Christmas! / Old hippies give me life I did LP covers for Whatevermen . Keijjo will have my head on a plate, but I did use a font. Sorry not sorry! / I also can't seem to draw Keijjo without a ponytail. // What about your thes-- / MY WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WEATHER IT IS DONTCHA THINK. // I can't promise anything about the next time I'll update. Let us all hope that I will smother myself in paying art jobs so I will never even have time to think about blogging! Till next time, ciao!

(Empty ramen packages and beer cans, dishwasher full of dirty dishes) / (Laptop: "Hi, how're zine things?") / (Paper: "Thesis deadline: November December January February March probably?") // It's not that I can't afford to live a wholesome life, but I've never had any prior experience with it. This page is dedicated to all kinds of positive shit! // Spring is just around the corner! / Aion nussia aurinkoa. // I quit smoking and will probably relapse in the summer, again. // I have friends who love and respect and support me! / You go, Glenn Coco! // My British friend Robbie is coming to visit me next month! / (Räps!) // I couldn't think of anything to fill this panel but yeah life iz good. Oh yeah Hässäkkäpäivät is just around the corner too.

I / LOVE FLAKING OUT! // I'll flake your birthday! // I'll flake your wedding! / Who's that? No clue. / Bye! // I'll flake your funeral! // I'll flake my own funeral! / Gotta go, bye. BR: Me. // I <3 FLAKING OUT

Feminists are dumb! / And poor people too! / (Meme gibberish) (Racist boy) // What primitive and ridiculous BS! // I'll share this link to all my friends so they'll know not to support such poor argumentation and malign ideas! // Soon: / Our ideas are shared all throughout the country! / Spread the word! / Go team! Go right-wing populism and neoliberalism! // AND SO THEY GOT WHAT THEY WANTED. AND SO DID THEY: / Hey, nobody's looking! Bring forth the scissors, brethren! / Hee hee! / Haw haw!

JOKAINEN AVATTU OVI ON RADIKAALI LUOTTAMUKSEN JA RAKKAUDEN TEKO! Hyvää ystävänpäivää rakkaat ystävät ja kollegat *** Tämä aukeama on teoksesta LIPSYNC #3: VEGAN REVENGE FANTASIES, joka ilmestyy Tampere Kupliissa 18.3.2017! Nähdään siellä ;) This spread is from LIPSYNC #3: VEGAN REVENGE FANTASIES, out in Tampere Kuplii March 18th 2017! I'll see you there ;)

Geez, this is going to be one heck of a Movie Moment! So cute it's gross! // (Like an hour later:) / Sons-of-bitches lost my luggage! / AGH. / So we went to buy groceries! Robbie was head over heels about the exotic Finland. / There's all kinds of gluten-free stuff here! / British coffee is gross and bland! / Especially the hypermarket next door and Juhla-Mokka coffee. // Kissy kissy cuddly cuddly. / Then we made out, ew, yuck. We had big plans indeed. // But then we ended up eating out, shopping for stuff, and making a roadtrip to Liminka. / Behold my ort art school. / Cool. / (All cars are hat-shaped Lada mobiles!) // We also watched a shit-ton of movies. // And you didn't even come to see me! / Although you lived right next door! Sniff! / Ya big old meanies! / Sorry, Toripolliisi. I forgot. A few days earlier: / Oh, I'll have a foreign guest too! They're French. // We're kind of in looove. / Sounds dangerous as hell. // Why, I would never have the guts or the skills to try any lovey-dovey shit with someone who lives thousands of miles away! No ma'am! // Robbie's coming back in a few months. Oops.

Psst, guys! My new zine is available in Tampere 16.-19.3. wherever you might catch me! Tampere Kuplii (Tampere-talo yms) Kirnupiimä Kuplii (Pispalan kirjasto, lauantai 18.3.) Tryer (Vastavirta, perjantai 17.3.) (Kulttuurivoimala job certificate) (Välitila) (Degree certificate from school) // I have no reason to move, nor do I have a reason not to. / Ei duunia, ei koulua, ei kinosta, ei vituta. // I don't want to get stuck in here. / To think too much. To stall. / "I'll move next month, or in autumn! Just to wait out the long lines in social security!" / (1000 years later) Hiya! I'm broke, lazy and messy. I love living in my own filth and avoid doing any work whatsoever. / OTTAKAA MUT DUUNIIN.

Tampere Kuplii 2017! / Feels exotic to be able to afford the train. A four hour trip feels like nothing! // Comic Finlandia prize went to Voro (The Thief) by Janne Kukkonen. / But art! / War! / Cows! / Tut-tut, you've been conditioned to think less of less high-brow comics! / I was so sure of Kannas (The Isthmus) by Hanneriina Moisseinen winning that I was utterly perplexed. // Rationally thinking, of course, The Thief is an extremely well-executed and visually coherent an adventure. Congrats, Janne! / Look at you fuckin' reading all this artsy shit and ending up drawing about furries drinking booze and making poop jokes. Lol! Saturday in zine sale: // (12-13-year-old anime kids) / (One of their friends who forgot to eat, drink and/or breathe) // Hey! // Please take your friend to the event organizers. // I saw you from back there. For a moment I thought you were manhandling that kid! // Nixu the child abuser! Oooh! I managed to schedule my lunch break so inconveniently that I missed all the interesting panels. / Then again all of the panelists were my friends and acquaintances so I probably hear about their projects and thoughts all the time anyway. // Kirnupiimä Kuplii in Pispala Library! / I'm moving out of my hometown for real. I have to start everything all over again in Tampere. I feel so damn melancholic. I owe this to myself to do something big and radical in my life. I'm scared and sad. I feel homeless. // So I went to Artturi to see Jukka Takalo live and had a few beers with people from Oulu. / (Oulu dialect gibberish) // It's a good thing there are so many people from Oulu living in Tampere so I won't miss Snooker Time Pub, Toripolliisi statue or garlic ice cream too much. / (even more Oulu dialect gibberish) (Hangover) // Autograph, please? // My idiot gut reaction says: / Why would Kaisa Leka the great artist want an autograph by little old Niko-Petteri from the block? / But my rational mind intruded: / Comic artists are not celebrities but rather a bunch of bullied nerds with book deals. / I dunno, that sounded kinda harsh. Anyway. // I checked out my friend's apartment in Kaleva region to see if I could become their roommate for the summer. // Then I took the liminal space also known as the train to one un-home back to another un-home. / Monday marked the beginning of my last week at work. Next week I'll get my degree certificate. SPRING.

So I got the apartment in Tampere, moving in June. // Two weeks later, at night: / OUUU-HUHUHUUU! I'm gonna miss my friends! And Snooker Time! And Heinäpää! And Snooker Time! OUUU-HUHUHUUU!!! Social circles change all the time, it's no use crying over it too much. / You can't stay in Oulu forever! Live a little! / The decision must be yours. We will be here to support your choice, but we can't make the decision for you. // In the Villa Salin Comics Camp Residence, Helsinki, my thought process got into its logical conclusion. / (I wasn't actually on the phone but it made more narrative sense to me.) / (I caught a cold.) / My life is too turbulent to move to another city right now. I gotta put Tampere on hold until I sort things out. / That's understandable, but I wish you had told me you need some time to think. Moving while unemployed is a hassle even if one were not mentally unstable - especially to an apartment with a contract for less than six months! / (Oh and I also graduated from school, graduation party date TBA.) // So! I'll stay in Oulu until my money flow becomes more preditable, or I find a more stable housing in Tampere. / I will put the upcoming summer in use artistically as well as I can. Wish me luck!

Again, I haven't drawn in weeks. / (GUILT) // Robbie visited. / I'm a bad person. // It's easy to fall into mental depths as an unemployed artist. Especially with a non-existent work morale like mine, and when I'm supposed to be my own boss in a self-employing profession. I don't know how to have self-discipline. // I gone and done had a new tattoo made! / I used Gaylord Phoenx by Edie Fake as source material and inspiration for my bachelor's thesis. Experimental alternative comix. I took on theatre. / We're working on The Toppling Tower by Epe Niiranen, his first play. 80's punk and 2010's artist crises in Oulu, with a touch of LGBTQ stuff. Training has been physically taxing. / My character will be spending a lot of time climbing, as the name of the play suggests. Better start exercising! / I don't know what else has been going on in my life during the past month. I gotta learn how to draw again first. I feel inadequate

Life control skills of an unemployed art shit: / Clean desk. / Matching intact socks. Since I'm staying in Oulu for the summer... // I'll die of loneliness if I just stay at home working on my graphic novel. I'll apply for an amateur theatre play! // You're cast as Anki Nordström, an enigmatic trans woman. Welcome to the production! / Trans woman? // Cis guy playing a trans woman again! Harmful stereotypes! / Do I have to let them down and turn down the role? Insincere! Unethical! Transphobic! / I thought the casting call said Anki is a crossdresser or a drag queen!? / I wish I had helped them find a real trans woman for the role! But isn't that the director's job, after all... / I must discuss with the director and the playwright. We're a small university theatre, not a huge Hollywood studio. Sometimes we gotta do a lil D.I.Y.! / In my artistic point of view (and trans man opinion) two cis actors are okay to play trans guy and trans gal in a queer-feminist summer play without it being the end of the world. / I guess, but... // Eventually I didn't back out of the production. There might be some internet heat, but as an actor I am willing to own up to my decision to see this through. / One can't live their life as a constant declaration of human rights or a bright example to others. / Sometimes one can apply crass humour? / (Quotes from The Swaying Tower, written by Epe Niiranen in 2017.) In other news! // Pling! // (Arttu the roommate) / We're having a new subtenant! / ? / A cat! / ??? // You didn't ask my opinion about getting a cat though, but I'm not even mad. Cats rule! / I have talked about this in length. You just never remember anything anyone says ever. / True. // PARHAAT YSTÄVÄT! // His name is Sigmund. / Cock pussy motherfucker.

Holaaa! Teatterin tekeminen on paitsi fyysisesti ja henkisesti rankkaa, myös luovia resursseja syövää. Kaikki ajatustoimintani pyörii Ankin ja kumppanien ympärillä! Olen silti saanut raapustettua harjoituskauden aikana jotain satunnaisia piirustuksia, joista tässä parhaat palat. Tervetuloa siis kaikki lukijat Oulun Ylioppilasteatterin kesänäytelmän HUOJUVA TORNI näytöksiin! Ensi-ilta 14.7. Byströmin sisäpihalla, lisätietoja Facebookista ja OYT:n sivuilta . Ollaan tosiaan myös tekemässä Roosan kanssa pienlehteä! Minä käsikirjoitin, rakas ystäväni ja ex-kämppikseni Roosa piirtää. Ilmestyy kesän aikana ;-* Tässä hahmosuunnitelmat, jotka Roosan avuksi piirsin. Käytiin kans Pikipopissa Tuomas Henrikin Jeesuksen Kristuksen Bändin keikalla. Kova meno oli, muttei tätä yksittäistä ruutua enempää:

Tilaustyöinfoa päivitetty 21.9.2017! Hintoja korotettu nousseen kysynnän ja kulttuurialan solidaarisuussääntöjen mukaisesti. Kaivakaa kuvetta, saatanan työssäkäyvät ruojat! NIKOPNIVA AT GMAIL PISTE COM NIKOPNIVA AT GMAIL PISTE COM NIKOPNIVA AT GMAIL PISTE COM NIKOPNIVA AT GMAIL PISTE COM NIKOPNIVA AT GMAIL PISTE COM Ensimmäinen hinta tarkoittaa vain yhtä hahmoa tai aihetta, jälkimmäinen hinta tarkoittaa kuvaa taustan ja/tai lisähahmojen kera. Neuvotteluvaraa on. First price for one character or subject, the second price for an image with added background or extra characters or elements. Prices are negotiable. LUONNOS a5 10€ a4 15/20€ a3 20/30€ ÄÄRIVIIVAPIIRUSTUS a5 40/50€ a4 50/60€ a3 70/80€ YKSINKERTAINEN VÄRITYS (1-2 HUOMIOVÄRIÄ) a5 50/70€ a4 70/80€ a3 100€* KOKOVÄRITYÖ* a5 70€ a4 100€* a3 alk. 150€* (*: Riippuen aiheen monimutkaisuudesta lisämaksu yksilöllisesti. Annetut hinnat suuntaa-antavia. / Depending on the complexity, extra fee considered individually. Given prices as guidelines.)

Puntalarock 2017! / Eternal megatired // This year was actually very perky in my part! I didn't drink too much or too little, weather was okay, camping site was awesome... Zines and patches I totally should've bought, though. KUSIPÄÄ. / *shit-eating noises* / Oopsie daisy. / I hope he's fine. // I had cool denim boxers again! Hello boys. KOVAA RASVAA! / Two minutes in: / *wheeze* / I'm too unathletic for moshpit. // Then I smooched a cute Dutch boy. Smoochy smoochy. *Casual rape banter* / What the--?! / This shit is worse than that other band in our stageplay promo party. / What kinda old dirty man punk... // I handed out stageplay flyers. / Hey, broke-ass southerner! Come to Oulu to see a stageplay! / Of course I will! ... // LILITH!!! / Nature voicescape of the week. // We happened to have some homophobic camping neighbours now. / We stole a few beers from them. / THAT'S ALL Hirvitalo front yard. Warm beer. I'm home.

Summer play's been played, and I'm worn out as hell. // I'm moving to Tampere in 2½* weeks, and th-- / WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ARE YOU GOING TO STUDY OR GET A JOB WHAT HUH WHAT!??!!!!???!?!? // God I hate that question. What if I just want a change of scenery? Discover myself?? Yeah, I'm an unemployed piece of shit! I'm only going to hang around and drink beer in Vastavirta pub! // Olkoon sitten niin! I'm not interested in a "real job"! / SKEITTAA JA DELAA! (*: Bloggaushetkellä tasan kaksi viikkoa. / Two weeks at this exact time of blogging.) I've slowly been saying goodbye to all the places in Oulu. / Regular pub. / Gig joint. / Gay bar. *smooch, slobber* / Regular pub. / Underground culture centre. / Regular pub. / Regular pub barkeeper custard! // Don't go! All the cool guys are leaving Oulu! / I've already done my mourning. / Not again. Ou-hu-huu! / Some have even said they're angry that I'm leaving. I'll let 'em be. I attended a tarot reading the other day. / What's all this tomfoolery. / Aw come on, it'll be fun! / Ugh, fine. // In my opinion, tarot is not a divination device or a magick item, but rather like a lense through which one can put different aspects of their life into focus. One universal main theme at a time, one can observe their past, future, values, choices and human relationships. All the aspects of the cards are within all of us already, but with the aid of the cards it's easier to focus on them in more depth. I know I said 'focus' twice. / Ooh! Aah! The universe is guiding me! Gumbaya! Atop thy head. Within thy core. Beneath thy feet. Thy past, thy future... And the peeps and things and stuff affecting your life 'n shit. // I do not fully recall my deck or what each card symbolized, so this is a fully liberal recital! Obviously the whole picture affects each individual card immensely, so it's not possible to deduce much! / (Fear of failure, a will to survive and thrive.) / (Great things and deeds ahead, very exciting.) / (Something something fucked up family Freud Freud blah blah blah.) / BUT FUCK THE DECK FOR NOW! Huh! / I've been a bit angry at you for leaving, but this deck is totally saying that you're doing the right thing. / So yeah! Good luck on your journey. // ... // OUUU-HU-HU-HUUU!!! That's exactly what I wanted to hear from you-hou-houuu!!! So what if I cherrypicked the most pleasant interpretation for myself! / I've got the universe's blessing - and more importantly, my friends' blessing! / I'm moving to Tampere if it kills me! // And hey, I absolutely do have a "real job!" Because making art is some laborious shit! / Gimme all your art grant money! And all the main roles! / Nyeoom! Bam! Suck on my left titty, Job Centre! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wezB3lXdAww

Now that my room is liveable I can finally report on Helsinki Comics Festival! But first... // H-P Lehkonen paid my deposit! SO YEAH, HKI. / (Several kilos of Pokuto comics.) / Thank God that was my last Oulu-Helsinki busride! / (Nine hours in a cheap bus.) // I missed Broken Minds exhibition because I really needed to rest after my trip. Next year I'll be more awake: there's a regional train from Tampere to Helsinki! / I didn't buy any of my friends' zines! I'm such a bad friend! It's always nice to see my friends and colleagues in Helsinki Comics Festival. It's such an empowering feeling like "You got this dude, you're a good comic artist and if you work hard you will make great things." / ( Jiipu won in Best Comic Blog category!) / (I was too shy to talk to Sophie Labelle .) Nothing much to say about moving to Tampere. Packing the car, 6-hour trip in the car, unpacking the car, all went smoothly. My room is all decorated and everything. / I only needed to pack my clothes, books, and electronics; the house has its own furniture in place.) / I'll talk about adjusting to my new life in Tampere as soon as I get to it. For the time being, I'll wait for employment center benefits so I'll get a bike or a bus card. Bye! (Tampere dialect is not my favourite thing in the world and it's getting kind of old to imitate it whenever you hear somebody lives there.)

Mua jotenkin epäilyttää julkaista tää kuvitus??? Vaikka siinä on natsipariskunta esitetty naurettavassa ja epäsuotuisassa valossa (ja tungin vielä varmuuden vuoksi FUCK NAZIS NATSIT VITTUUN-vesileiman overlay-filtteriksi :D) niin onhan ne silti vähän symppiksiä eläinhahmoja. Mutta ehkä mun nyt pitää vaan luottaa että useimpien ihmisten mielikuvissa sika on tyhmä ja likainen eläin... Tässä vielä vaitonainen kohtaaminen nasuparin kanssa: (Central Square.) / Oooh, look at that voima-asetelman vakiinnuttaminen. / (A nazi and his girlfriend, walking into red lights.) / (Me on a new bike waiting for green lights, not wanting to fall over in front of a car.) // (Kaleva district.) (A narrow walkway.) // Does this look like a bike lane to you?! // Not all the rules are meant to or worth breaking. / (Car lane.) / Anarchism is about making room for EVERYONE. (Except nazis.)

Haisuli. Tussi paperille, 2017. Moikkelis koikkelis! Olen tuskaillut sarjakuva-albumin, apurahahakemuksien, Inktoberin (rip, nippanappa yli puolet jaksoin tehä) ja perintään menneiden laskujen kanssa niin on jäänyt vähän bloggailu vähemmälle. Lisäksi kuvapäivis tosiaan täyttyi enkä oo saanu ostettua uutta - kymppi on iso raha jos toisessa päässä diiliä on viikon ruoat! Oli miten oli, tässä satunnaisia piirustuksia jotka eivät ihan kelvanneet omiksi päivityksikseen tässä kesän, syksyn aikana. Bye! Ostakaa multa tilaustöitä! Ja pidelkää peukkuja että saan apurahaa! Queen. Tussi paperille, 2017. Happy house full of happy people. Tussi paperille, 2017. Pizzaa ja kulleja. Diptyykki, tussi paperille. 2017. What a cute cashier boy. / That's 100% the only reason I picked that queue. / Äiti ja poika samasta puusta veistetty! (Limingantullin Prismassa heinäkuussa, päivää ennen Huojuvan tornin ensi-iltaa. / Hypermarket, day before stageplay premiere night.) All the boys hate me. This will be my life forever. / Fag. / Fag. / Fag. // I'm not explicitly hostile towards you. / This is new and rewarding! I will now develop maddeningly pubescent puppy feelings for you! // I am openly friendly towards you. I'm also jokseenkin cute. / I wish I knew how to relate to men in a normal way. (Puhtaaksipiirtämätöntä pohdintaa pienen homopojan suhteesta kanssapoikiin. / Unpolished ruminations about a gay boy relating to fellow boys.) Hahmo sarjakuvasta HeteroseXual Animals 4 (TBA) The Pride flag was invented by people. Go ahead and add more stripes. Sopu sijaa antaa! / (* Doesn't include Straight Pride.) / Keep nationalism out of Pride too. / Kuka tarvii kansallislippuja? En mää ainakaan! (Pohdintaa mustan ja ruskean raidan lisäämisestä sateenkaarilippuun solidaarisuudenosoituksena rodullistetuille, erit. mustille ja latinalaisamerikkalaisille HLBTQ-ihmisille jotka sysäsivät liikkeelle nykymuotoisen länsimaisen Pride-liikkeen Stonewallin mellakoissa v. 1969 ja joita edelleen syrjitään kaikin tavoin niin valtaväestön kuin HLBTQ-yhteisön puolelta. / Ruminations about adding the black and brown stripes to the rainbow flag in solidarity with racialized [specifically Black and Latin@] LGBTQ individuals who started the modern Pride movement in Stonewall riots of 1969 and who are still marginalized by both the LGBTQ community and the mainstream [white cishets in power].)

I have a hairy mole. / (There.) // Pinocchio had Jiminy Cricket. // Do it, Nixu. Kill them all. / I have this. / His name is Herbert the Spider. / My good conscience is on vacation. Moido. At the bottom of the couch I wait for unemployment benefits. At the bottom of the couch I wait for death. I wonder if I'm at risk of socio-economical exclusion. Hyhky workroom, forenoon. / Focus. / (Self-flagellations.) I love my workroom. / Basement floor. No internet, no windows. My concentration is at its best! // The commute sucks tho, bike and morning frost and everything. / Another uphill! Poik mää kuale! Besides, I was in Pispala ridge the day before too so I didn't feel like biking today. / Anarchist Black Cross Tampere prisoner support meal, seitan stew, comrades, and LGBT fundraiser hangover. // The party wasn't too exciting but at least I tested the waters after eight years of not attending this particular party. / See you again in another eight years. Being unemployed is boring but getting a job doesn't sound too titillating either. (Don't tell that to my potential employers.) / Well what do you want to do, right now? / Go to bed. Make dinner. Write a zine. Produce dopamine and adrenaline. Pick at the scab in my elbow. Something useful and rewarding. / I guess a bike trip or a jumpstart to my bloodsugar would put my brain noodles to work. Sitting, alcohol and internet has deflated me completely. Monday blues is the result of capitalist brainwashing. I will decide that it's a day for rest now. Home? Car? Family? Husband? Traveling? Property? What? / Alien world, alienation. / I don't even know what I would use money for should I have it. This is everything I've ever done, ever felt. (What's your dream job?) I don't understand the question. Oululainen ankkuli pikkuhönössä. Muste paperille, 2017. / A tipsy little duckie from Oulu. Ink on paper, 2017.

Do you agree to the terms and conditions of this rental contract? / (Work space. 62,50€ per month. Deposit: 145€.) / No. No. No! It's too expensive! No!! / Yes. // You can't afford to keep it up for twelve whole months! Käänny takas! Käänny takaaaaaaas!!! / Bye now! / ("Bye" but in Tampere dialect which I loathe and despise) // Well! Now that I have to pay myself sick for the work space I think I might just actually go and work there every once in a while. / But I still gotta wait another full week before the Hyhky basement locker will start paying herself back, because... // OULU COMIC FESTIVAL is here again! As am I! Hi Oulu! I missed you Oulun sarjakuvafestivaali 1.-3.12.2017

Sup barkeep! I'm back home after three months! / Oh, I didn't notice you were gone. / - / OULU COMICS FESTIVAL Oulu Main Library: / The right-wing populist cryptofascist party has blown big money to reserve the large auditorium for their meeting, right at the same time as the comic festival opening ceremony. / Christ. // You could tell from miles away who had come for the comic and who hadn't. / (Just by the confused and offended look on their faces. Making fun of people's clothes and appearance is not cool or punk rock. // In the "101 Comics From Finland" exhibition opening I was pretty and quenched. / OPEN IN OULU MUSEUM OF ARTS UNTIL JAN 7TH 2018! On Saturday I interviewed H-P Lehkonen. / What advice wouldst thou give to cishet authors writing LGBTQ characters? / I recommend you get yourself a sensitivity reader! / For my new comic "Life Outside The Circle" I got help writing and designing the Finnish-Turkish main character from a person I know who's also Finnish-Turkish. Hetkinen... / Love wipes evil out of me! / In Tukikohta: Independence Day blah bluh blah blah.

Ahdistuskohtaus Tammelassa. Sivellintussi liian huokoiselle paperille, 2018. / Anxiety attack in Tammela district. Brushpen on too spongy a paper, 2018. I can't not look. / (Activation model - Poverty - Blight - Death) / LEAVE IT BE / Food donation - discontinued for not making profit. / I don't have the energy to be angry anymore. All I got left is fear and anxiety. I haven't felt this big a burden in years, although on an intellectual level I know that's not the case. LOOKS LIKE IT'S TIME TO REMIND NIXU OF GOOD THINGS IN LIFE AGAIN! / No, I wanna wallow in self-pity! Wallow, wallow. // I live in an anarcho-feminist queer commune in the best working-class city there is. // I'm ating a cute and nice dude. / Who you still can't draw properly, I reckon. // I'M SURE YOU'LL [Nixu] FIND SOME ART COMMUNITY TO JOIN SO THAT YOU WON'T BECOME A TOTAL RECLUSE. MÄÄ USKON SUHUN! (I couldn't think of any more good things in my life) (State:) I'm tired of trying. Help me out! / (Anarchist activity - Theatre - Social life:) Nixuuu, Nixu... Come out and play! / (Floating on a cloud of isolation:) Did I hear something? Nah, I think I'll just watch one more Vine compilation video in the middle of night. / Dänkinhuuto

I began the rehabilitative labour workshop in Legioonateatteri. / Hi! I'm Niksu, 27 years old, and I'm not interested in getting a job. // Excercise and getting up early is quite nice after all! // COMMON COLD! // I changed my mind, being awake and being alive both SUCK WHOLE ASS. // I've had long naps. That's the only kind of naps I know how to take. Then we went to Oulu! // OYT: NOITAVASARA! / Very long but beautiful ritual scenes. // I didn't make any contact with the characters. / Huh, the main character is currently being manhandled. I'm not touched by this. / Or rather, they were not characters (Not even the ones based on historical figures! Such as Matthew Hopkins etc.) as much as they were archetypes and symbols. Not unlike tarot... // Read this paragraph! / React to this interrogation! / Make way to an actor climbing on top of the audience! / Interactive theatre makes me very uncomfortable. Take the hand of the person you're sitting next to and tell them: "I LOVE YOU!" // - // Hee hee, hoo hoo.

Labour rehab support pays slightly more money than unemployment benefit. / I can buy a winter jacket! And decent intact shoes! And art supplies! / ...Or not. I'm lousy. I'm lazy. I'mdemotivated. I don't know what I'll do when I grow up. I'm gonna be thirty years old soon. I don't know how to sell my labour. I barely have the self-discipline to make art. I'm a drunk. (etc etc) // -- // But I'm still releasing a new LIPSYNC zine in Tampere Kuplii! / Topic is unemployment and anxiety! Ooh! Aah! Tadaa! Femidistron pöydästä löytyy, ja punkkikekkereistä kautta maan. Pari euroa kustantaa, ehkä vähemmän ;D / See you in Feminist Comics Booth & punk gigs all across the country! Price is set at two...ish euros ;D Automatized anarcho-communism now! Tax the robots! Grind the rich into biofuel!

Tämän merkinnän julkaisuhetkellä Lipsync #4: Young, Broke & Krapulous on juuri haettu painosta. Postimyyntitilauksia otetaan vastaan osoitteeseen niko p niva ät geemail! Hi you didn't make it to Malmö comics residency, sorry. / I saw this coming although I'm kinda bummed out because I spent so much time on my application. / The world is full of super talented comic artists and there were only four recidency slots. // Head hurts... Wanna puke... TAMPERE COMIC FESTIVAL! / Lipsync #4 didn't finish printing in time, but I'm mostly okay with that. / Tampere is my favpurite comic city and it's nice to see colleagues even when empty-handed. // Aggressive reflux affected my mood a bit but I still attended interesting panels. // Seeing if you got any art grants? / They already skipped my name in the alphabetical order. No dice. Team Tessa Astre, Aapo Kukko & Niko-Petteri Niva: 3000€ (three thousand) for making the graphic novel "The Swaying Tower!"

My new job starts tomorrow. // How's it feel? / Thanks for asking, I am FUCKING TERRIFIED! // I haven't had a paying job in 1 ½ years. Doesn't 500+ days count as long-term unemployment? / Yummy, delicious free taxpayer money! Guffaw! Systeemi on mätä! // I've tried to develop myself during this time. Maintain my health, sleep schedule, diet, relationships, political goals... / And don't forget moment relax! // "Professional skill" is an empty and arbitrary term! Salary work is not an inherent value! / BUT I'm excited to have a chance at some sort of micro-scale economical autonomy. And to have a job in my own field in a very interesting establishment.

In Rehab Theatre people mostly know me as 'Niksu.' / 'Niko-Petteri?' Is that a comic book character of yours or what? / (New director) //...Uh, no. It's me. / Oh! Ah-ha! Ha! Ha!!! // But what about my blog? The image of a Niko-Petteri as curated and moderated by myself? / What about the 'self' as a social, teleological, cultural construct? / What about the position of the stars in the sky??? / Niksu. / Niksu! Moro nääs, halluukkonää nähä mun luurankotuheron? // Mikä surettaa, pikku goottityttö? / Ku mää en löyvä mun röökejä.

Other than moving in, I haven't blogged about living in a commune at all although I moved out in June. // And although I did live there whole nine months! / I was given birth by the commune to become the succesful artist I am today! Ha-ha! / A-hem... // We were six to eight (I forget) human roommates and like a dozen animals such as cats dogs, birds, lizards and bugs. A mixed bunch of students, job-havers and unemployed. / The proprietors rented out this huge mansion of a house to the bunch of us as long as they would finally find someone to buy the house. Buying the house was by no means a thing to happen all that fast, you see the house had four small bedrooms, three large bedrooms, an enormous dining/living room and A GOD DAMN SWIMMING POOL DOWNSTAIRS INDOORS. / Welcome to luxury communism, y'all! / (I tried the pool like twice because I mean... the fuck?) // Clearly the house was originally built to accommodate a large family with children. The walls were thin as paper to make sure the adults would hear the kids go about their shenanigans. / Niko, no!!! / Juice / (Paint thinner) // This was not a very practical feature in a young adult household, should one prefer to get up at seven in the morning. / (Normal speaking voice) / (A dog startled by her own shadow) / (Stairs cracking) / Not all of us were able to have a soundproof room, nor did the earplugs help with the looming feeling of constant human presence. Living half my adult life with singular roommates was all fine, with a lot less household maintenance and a lot more solitude. / Roommate's traveling, aika nakuilla! / Huulisynkkaa henkesi edestä! / Yuck. // Communes however require a shit-ton of maintenance, house meetings and surprise guests. / If only I had seen that coming! // Sure, it would've been mighty credible as an anarchist to live communally and grow tomatoes in the back yard, but I'm far too unsocial for that kind of stuff should it require living in a kolkhoz. / IF I CAN'T SECLUDE, IT'S NOT MY REVOLUTION! But honestly tho, the best thing about the commune was getting to know all the queer anarchist individuals in the city. I wouldn't change a thing about that experience <3 / Greetings from the pink-black bubble, y'all!

What can you do to stop nazism and fascism right now? / Nazis recruite new members in the exact same ways as any other terrorist organization. / You take e.g. a young, impressionable person (usually male) with feelings of powerlessness, unsafety and insecurity. He is given a fabricated enemy projection that he can blame for all the bad stuff he has to encounter in his personal life. // Why am I alone? Why does nobody care? / Why am I poor and miserable? / Why does everybodyhate me for no reason? // Fascists have what they crave: easy answers to complicated questions. // Because feminists and the gays want to enslave the heterosexual male! / Jewish elite! Illuminati! White genocide! / God has forsaken the West! Kill 'em all! First and foremost, nazis want POWER. For one reason or another they feel dispirited, humiliated, emasculated. / To such an abused soul it's easy to sell REVENGE. // Leftist politics don't have such sexy hero myths to offer, but rather just slow, troublesome long-term goals. / (Capitalism, structural oppression, toxic masculinity) / (Altruism, solidarity, humility, intangibility, abstraction, grass-roots level) Then why do nazis feel so powerless and vengeful? / Watch out, that immigrant's trying to steal your cookies. / Yeah! He sure is! / (Cliche, I know.) // Nazis want to steal the power "back" from the leftist "elite." / Capitalists want to steal resources from everyone*. / Looking kinda alike? That's cause it's the same goddamn thing! (*: Kaikki = siirtomaat, köyhät, julkiset palvelut, luonnonvarat. Fasismin lisäksi patriarkaatti ja ihmiskeskeinen luontokäsitys ovat kapitalismille ominaisen oikeutusajattelun sivuoireita.) / (*: Everyone = colonies, people living in poverty, public services, natural resources. Along with fascism, patriarchy and human supremacist biosphere relationship are symptoms of the feeling of entitlement attached to capitalism.) (Flowers of evil: Power fantasy, recruitment, bitterness and vengeance.) / Here are some suggestions to you specifically! // 1. Disableing nazi support gigs and merchandise sales! / (City premises, event organizer.) / Contact those who enable nazi moneyflow and visibility! 2. Call out hate speech! / Yo, shut up you racist fuck. / I'm not alone! / That person probably won't change their mind (at least not immediately), nor will they even be listening. / But they sure will be listening! / Take a friend with, calling out hate can be dangerous sometimes! 3. Guess what else diminishes fascism other than diminishing fascism? / It's enlarging antifascism! // Donate to a human rights organization by means of money or labour! / (LGBTQ Pride team) / (Food not bombs) 4. The usual, or sticker wars! / Sounds hippie? Exterminating nazi symbols from the streets is a valuable act nonetheless. // 5. And don't forget demonstrations! Although demonstrations and punching nazis is the most visible and tangible form of antifascist activism, it's not operating on the premise that "there, now we've saved the world, boy how cool and exciting that was!" / Direct action isn't always exciting and sexy, nor is any form of antifascist action any worse than another. All aboard according to their own skills and energy level! No pasaran! <3

2.7.2020. Tekis mieli blogata taas, mutta en tiedä mistä aloittaa. Kahdessa vuodessa on tapahtunut paljon. 1,5 vuodessa? En muista. Yhteenmuutto. Töissä käyty ja oltu. (Oon ollu taas työtön tammikuusta 2020 alkaen.) Työmatka Pietariin. (Ei nähty paljon muuta kuin laivan seiniä.) Albumia tehty yms. (Albumi #1, albumi #2, antologia, kuvitus. Muista hakea apuraha! En oikeesti ikinä muista hakea vaikka olisi muistutuskin.) Emt tuntuu että en ole enää olemassa taiteilijana. Työnteko on yksinäistä ja hidasta - en näe edistymistäni objektiivisessa valossa ja työkuri on nolla! Bloggaaminen ei maistu, mutta haluan muistuttaa maailmaa siitä että teen yhä sarjakuvia, vaikka mitään ei tule julki. Ja niitä harvoja julkaistuja en osaa markkinoida. PSST! DREAMS OF QUEER UTOPIA -DIGIANTOLOGIA OSTETTAVISSA QUEERWEBCOMIC.COMISTA! Poliittinen tietokirjallisuussarjakuva - nääh. Omaelämäkerrallinen päiväkirjasarjakuva - tuplanääh. Mikä blogin sisällöksi? En haluu piirtää, mutta en haluu tehdä mitään muutakaan. Pitäis kai opetella taas olemaan spontaani ja sosiaalinen tms. Tampereelle muutto kolme vuotta sitten oli shokki jo sikäli, mutta korona-ahdistus päälle vielä (eli yksinäisyys ja pysähtyneisyyden tunne).

Moronääs! Tämän kuukauden blogautus käsittelee uutuusjulkaisuja. Kuten olette huomanneet, blogi on ollut toista vuotta jäähyllä kun olen keskittynyt pitkien sarjisprojektien tekemiseen ja välillä jopa palkkatöihinkin. Tänä syksynä odotus kuitenkin palkitaan ja vieläpä kaksin kappalein! Oulun sarjakuvafestivaaleilla 20.22.11. julkaistaan sekä jo kolme vuotta tekeillä ollut, Oulun Ylioppilasteatterin kesänäytelmään perustuva sarjakuva-albumi HUOJUVA TORNI (T. Astre, A. Kukko ja N-P. Niva) että burnoutista kertova antologia KATKENNEITA LANKOJA - TARINOITA LOPPUUNPALAMISESTA (toim. K. Korhonen ja A. Vieruaho, kust. Ateena Kustannus). Molemmista sarjakuvista pääsen minäkin kertomaan jo (nyttemmin perutun) Helsingin sarjakuvafestivaalien yhteydessä tänä viikonloppuna, kun Oulun sarjakuvakeskus livestriimaa etäohjelmaa lauantaina 5.9. Linkki tapahtumaan täällä. Nähdään internetissä!

Moronääs! Talviaikaan siirtyminen väsyttää ja apurahojen hakeminen ahistaa, mutta onneksi on Feministisen sarjakuvatoiminnan tsemppirinki ja viikoittaiset Jitsi-tapaamiset, joissa voi purkaa sydäntään. Salome on edennyt kuin pikajuna - kyllä, juuri sellainen jonka vessassa ei ole lämmitystä eikä päivävaunuissa pistoketta - mutta etenee kuitenkin. Katkenneita lankoja ilmestyy Oulun sarjakuvafestivaaleilla 21.11., ja sitä voi ennakkotilata täältä. Olen nyt myös Twitterissä! En tiedä kauanko jaksan sillä leikkiä, Pokémon Go ja Duolingo jaksoivat kiinnostaa ehkä kuukauden päivät. Mutta sielläpä on tämmöinen sarjakuva jota kannattaa lukea! Hyvät vibat kertoo hipeistä, salaliittoteoreetikoista, okkultisteista ja kiusankappaleista. Ilmestyy täysin mielivaltaisesti ja epäsäännöllisesti. Hyvät vibat, eli Hyvikset, eli HV, onkin hyvää treeniä Oulun sarjakuvafestivaalien pyörittämään SARJAKUVASTRIPIN MM-KISAAN, jonka aiheena on "koronarokote"! Deadline on tän viikon lauantaina klo 16:59, ja kisatyöt lähetetään Instagramiin aihetunnisteella #coronacomicstrip. Täällä linkki fesetapahtumaan! Tulipa tästä nyt yhtäkkiä tämmönen mainoskanava! No kun ei huvita piirtää päiväkirjaa ennää... Ehkä taas joskus silti kuitenkin... Nykyäänhän Sarjakuvablogit muistuttaa itsestään ennen kaikkea harmillisten roskaviestien muodossa :D Laajenna penissi nyt!