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Tällä mun tekemällä kuvalla varustettuja finnish comics -mukeja voi ostaa nyt Suomen sarjakuvaseuran sivuilta tai Helsingin kirjamessuilta 23.-26.10.2008 Suomen sarjakuvaseuran pöydästä. I designed this mug for the Finnish comic society, and you can now buy it from the Finnish comic society's webpage , or from Helsinki's book fair 23th to 26th of October from Finnish comic society's table.

Missing (working title) | It's pritty easy to dare me to do stupid things... | I'm SO going to write a better novel than you. | I will write a LONGER one and by HAND. | So, now I'm going to write a novel in november. | Yes, yes, I know I'm not a writer... | But it's going to be great anyway... ...And I'm going to write the story so, that I can use it for my album... | ...And I already know how my novel begings. Lisätietoa | More info at: http://www.nanowrimo.org/ aiemmat osat löytyy vuodatuksen vanhasta blogistani. previous chapters can be found from my old blog at vuodatus .

I don't usually forget important things. | Oh no, I was supposed to call that one phonecall! | ....shit did I forgot to turn off the stove?! | And I'm not usually late... | Agh, I was supposed to be in Kallio 15 minutes ago! Where's my keys?! | What's wrong with me?? Specially today... | Everything that happens, is somehow separate from me. Everything happens outside of me | Somewhere else. | And I'm ready to fall apart on my thoughts. | But I can't dissapear yet. | I have to wait for next month. | And that's quite soon. | That is if I do lots of work now, so I can make a small place for myself. What are you worrying about, small thing? You are something. Well duh, of course I don't really CARE about you, I'm just saying it's not wise to go away.

I'm tired. I don't know how to work anymore. I've been lazy. Done nothing. I'm not going to use this spoon. (ever).

NOW, during this trip, I finnaly had the feeling I've been waiting for. | That feeling when I'm thinking... | I don't want to go back to Helsinki. | It doesn't feel like home yet. | It even snowed in Oulu. | I'm writing to get rid of this bad feeling. | Maybe I won't show this to anyone afterall. | This month is going to be unreal.

MAYBE you are important to me. MAYBE. | (and) WHAT if | WHAT if | WHAT if I | WHAT IF I am something to you. | BUT no. | No. No. No.

I give up. | That was the day, when she turned into | invisible. | Invisible.

Now | Now | Now. | I'm cold. | Now I | Now I will stop. | And fix. | I will fix myself.

NOW I maybe UNDERSTOOD | UNDERSTOOD so m ethi ng | about myself. | BUT | but? | WHAT i f | This time | I DON'T HAVE any buts? | What if I'm finally free? | NOW. | Maybe. | (BUT).

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One. Where did you go? | Wait for me, | I'll come with you! | can you hear me? | Two. I miss you. Three. Can I miss you? | And do you miss me? Four. Do you ever wonder, what am I doing? | I wonder all the time... | ...what are you doing... | ...And with who. | No. | I'm not going to ask. Five. Because if I ask... | ...Are you coming back.. | Then I start to doubt that you're not. | ..Or.. | ...That have you ever really... | Been here. Six. I'm angry. Seven. I'm so angry at myself. | I'm just waiting. | Waiting... | ...I want to go away. Eight. I want to go away from my thoughts. | Away from here. | Just anywhere. | Away. Nine. Away. | Away. | Away. | Away. Ten. But... | ...What will... | remain of me.... | ...then? Eleven. Remain? Twelve. Thirteen. Fourteen. Fifteen. Sixteen. No. Seventeen. Eighteen. Nineteen. You... Twenty. Why did you have to go? | Or... | Yes, I know | I'm sure you didn't even know you where leaving. Twenty-one. I'm sure you didn't even know I would miss you. | And I'm not complaining. | I'm just making observations. | Just saying thing aloud. | Just saying.. Twenty-two. Where was I? Twenty-three. Oh, right...

...Mut ei se haittaa. Hyvää Uutta Vuotta kaikille! Just a bit lost... What do you want from me? | What do I want to accomplish? | What's left of me? | What can I do? | What I can't do? | I'm fine by myself | Am I fine? | I'm a bit lost. | Is there a difference between being lost and gone missing? ...But it's ok. Happy New Year to everyone!

A small thing and it's small thoughts. So small that there's no room for anything else in it's head that to itself.

En nyt muista oonko jo laittanut tämän joskus blogiin. Tein tämän aikoinaan Kemin sarjakuvakisaan (jossa ei menestystä tietenkään tullut), ja julkaisin sitten Siilisalaatti Nro 3 -omakustanteessa mustavalkoisena. Nyt: OOH, VÄREJÄ! Värejä Marin blogissa!!

Taas vanhaa tavaraa, tämän tein ensimmäiselle kurssilleni, minkä pidin sarjakuvakeskuksella. En muistaakseni ole laittanut tätä omaan blogiini kuitenkaan... Ja JOO, huomasin. SarjakuvapäivAkirja. This is a old comic again. I did it for my first course that I held in the Comic Centre in Helsinki. I hope I haven't updated this in my blog before... A comic diary. | I'm sure that everyone has kept a diary in some point... | 3.10.2008 Friday... Dear diary, today I got up quite late, I've been so tired... | 3.10.2008 Friday. I got up quite late... | Yes, yes, let's go out... | ...I've been so tired lately. | ...A comic diary is different from a normal diary so, that you DRAW about your day in a comic form. | It means also that the drawings has to be quick (and usually quite messy too). Why should you have a comic diary? | There's atleast two good reasons: | Just because keeping a diary is the best way to clear your thoughts and it's so great to get to read your old diary entries... | Ash, I'm so tired... But I'll just draw quickly what he said to me today.... | AND when you do your diary in a comic form, you'll draw every day, and you'll develope your drawing style without realizing it. You can't show your diary to anyone!! | Then you don't have to think about critic, how other people will feel about your comic, about your drawing style. you don't have to think about anything... | I'd like to draw a comic about yesterday... But I don't think she would want me to draw it... | Well, I'll just draw it in my DIARY. | ...Then you draw comics just to YOURSELF.

Today I am a little girl. | I put my wellines on | walk through puddles | and play invisible . Today I don't care about grown up things . And I don't care that they say: | You are so small. | Because today I am so so small. Today I leave my hair in a mess and I don't think what you think of me because | Today I am a little girl | you are so stupid | today I don't care about you . Today I am again | playing hide and seek by myself | And maybe tomorrow I'll find myself. | But today I am small.

Write here what you want me to say | And I will write here what I want to hear | Then you will see what a good match we would be.

Sunday 8th March. I try to keep my story in together. | And my thoughts are just a mess. | ...And then... | I fail. | And I have to start all over again.

I shouted | But you didn't hear. And I couldn't move. And then I was alone.

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Alla oleva sarjakuva löytyy myös uusimmasta Kuti -ilmaislehdestä (nro 11) ! The comic below here can also be found from the new issue of Kuti magazine (issue number 11)! LOOKING longing waiting

Mut vaikka se onkin komeempi, niin ihan samanlailla se silti huijjii. Even though Cheater Dog looks much cooler now, you shouldn't believe it, it's still such a cheater.

On the other hand I just want to break down. On the other hand I want to show that I'm STRONG. So so strong. And I don't | save me | want a saviour.

I'm running but | I can't move I give up and stop existing

...Mut ei niit kenkii oo ees olemassa. This is like it, when its haz the glasses an the hat and the shoez (oh those shoes!) ...But those shoez doesn't even excist.

Usually there's a connection between CERTAIN SONGS and CERTAIN PERSONS. | And when you hear that CERTAIN SONG you'll remember that CERTAIN PERSON. And many times it turns out, that you can't listen to that CERTAIN SONG anymore because of that CERTAIN PERSON. | So that's why it's so WONDERFUL to hear a song that dosn't remind you of ANYTHING. Only about that CERTAIN SONG. | And it's so rare and fragile... | ...That you have to be carefull Because if you're not carefull, some CERTAIN PERSON might get attached to it... | ...And then THAT SONG is also lost.

NO maybe but. | And when WHY or | What if YES | And still always NO.

For a short while, I dreamed of THESE... | ...BUT I didn't do that for long | Because I already got some other stuff on my mind. | Can't help it, I'm not able to concentrate on anything really.

Missing (a working title) | 95 pages. The first version of the story is finished. | AND now... | I'm starting all over again.

Missing (a working title) | I'm lost in my work when I REALIZE... I'm really already editing this! | It feels funny in my stomach | But I shoudn't get excited, there's still so much to do. IT'S NOT READY YET. IT'S NOT READY YET. I Still have time to panic, feel lots of anxiety, get depressed, say "I will never" (so many times). | BUT | Now I could be happy, just a short while. ...And then. | Oh F***.

27th of April 2007 | I have time to sleep a little next to my luggages | And when I wake up | I sicretly wish that I would want to stay | And that someone would forbid me to go.

Ei, se ei ole kirjoitusvirhe. Vanha sarjakuvani, jonka tein edellisvuoden Helsingin sarjakuvafestivaali lehteen . This is an old comic of mine, which I made for the last years Helsinki Comic festival -magazine .

Tän sarjiksen tein Ladyfestin zineen, joka ilmestyy joskus ehkis. I did this horoscope to a Ladyfest zine, sorry that I'm too lazy to translate the texts, but they are really just nonsense.

GREEN is not my thing | (or IS IT?) | Life is so exciting when you don't even know yourself what you are going to do next

It's so nice that you do comics as a hobby. | No one is saying you have to do this. Why won't you just give up? | Remember not to be too hasty. Don't do quantity over quality. | You are still so young. We don't even expect you to understand these kind of important things. | But... Don't you understand? | When I have to, I can do miracles... | ...Like become invisible.

What do you do? | I'm drawing. | No, I mean in general | Um... I draw. Or I'm thinking I should be drawing | Is that even healty anymore? | No.

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Green might be the new yellow for me.

I can juggle with three balls... | ...Almost. Still, it's quite amazing... | ...How such a small things... Like three small balls.. | ...Can make you happy. ...It's such a shame, that sadness doesn't need bigger things eather.

I am number one!! YEAH! In your face Fletcher Hanks!

Darkness It's here again so suddenly | And again I... | ...Was left alone. But that's good. | ...Because now I can, all by myself... ...Turn on the lights... | ...And turn into a teacup.

When you think that never again Then | And so fast And although And hard | And hurts | And long Then still | And atleast then | you'll know That maybe someday again | And fast.

Could you just go away already | Because I'm so tired of... Thinking | And mourning I have other things to do... Although it might be hard to believe.

I live in a sand castle. | In it's highest tower And every night I plan to run away | to a place where the sand dosn't disappear below my feet | Where the walls are not sinking | But I never go anywhere. I'm just planning.

I'll be back next week.

Piirustuksiani vuodesta 1991 vuoteen 2009. My drawings from 1991 to 2009.